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Im sadly only 13. Around the begining of 2011 i was i wanted to die. Then my older cousin had way more balls to do it than me and he killed hemself. I saw how devastated my whole family was and i really didnt want to put them thru that same pain again. 1 mnth later my pastor dies. 37 days later my grt grt grandmother dies. 2 mnths later my grt gma dies. My grades dove off a cliff. I started cutting and choking myself.2012 im back to cutting with 2 new blades. My depressing ways get the best of me. People start encourging my cutting with their depressing and rude comments. Cant sleep. My eyes swell up for two and three days at a time because of my constant crying. A black pit where my heart once remained. With no one their but my “BestFrenn” who continuesly slays my poor vulnerable wrists.