does that make me a bad guy?

hey, there have been a lot of instances when i did something wrong and people would usually stand up for me and i would feel that no i did not do wrong, i was right. but this time, nobody wants to stand up for me, and it feel so bad. i did this thing for everybody’s and my own good and it is really wrong that when i am in a big prob nobody just wants to give me some medical/financial support for it. they all wanted me to do it, that’s why i did it. now i just cant get a hard on. the doc says its going to take some years before i can get it done by myself or it could take just a minor surgery and get over within a week. but the surgery costs and nobody has money now. looks like all the family money has been invested here and there and suddenly they r all poor. it is all here and i think that it was totally correct of what i did. they all certainly wanted me to have that operation which gave me this prob in the first place. i will never be able to trust people again. 🙁