I’ve done some things that I can’t live with , so why do I to put on this fake smile? Everyday for me consists of keeping a lid on myself,
I don’t go one day without contemplating suicide, I literally spent 9am-5pm goggling quick suicide methods and I ‘m beginning to think pills will take to long.
Fuck, today I couldn’t even carry on a conversation with my own mom without my
anxiety going through the damn roof. Man, I haven’t left my room for shit today. My body is hungry
but mentally I am full. Weed doesn’t even make me hungry anymore but at least it allowed me to maintain that blissful happiness.
I haven’t been able to get out this slump for weeks, and my parents are starting to notice…
I got maybe a day or two max before I get kicked out of my place, don’t know what I’ll do then hopefully I find a way.
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im sorry u r goin through a hard time i have done things i can live with but its hard, u just gotta keep pushin through.
STAY STRONG.
Gotta do something to boost your mood, googling suicide methods all day isn’t going to help. Just going for a walk or getting some exercise or cleaning up would help even a tiny bit.
I skate and weightlifting but skating doesn’t make me happy anymore, but I will go to the gym today thanks for the support guys.
Hi TDO, Like i’ve said many times, life sux. society sux, humanity sux. i think many of us are here for the same reasons. we feel we hide how we truly feel, it makes us feel worse. some of us maybe enjoy it. usually from the time i wake up to the time i fall asleep can be a constant battle for me. some days are good others aresn’t so good. lately i know i’m going down hill again. i’ve started planning the next time, just have to figure out where as i dont want anybody that knows me to find me. i know i wouldn’t want to find anybody so i dont want to put that burden on anybody else. Stay strong tho, Hold your head high, your still young. give life a chance. wait till youve tried to enjoy life out on your own and maybe even have a good job and a family. If you wanna chat FB me. Take care.
LB