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almost formed a plan…

by gr33nt33n
written by gr33nt33n

12/19/2022

i’m so tired. i’m 19 going on 20 years old and i’ve done absolutely nothing to show for it. i’m a quitter – i’ve quit on everything and everyone in my life except for the shitty drugs and the sex, the DIY piercings, the self-harm… i quit on everything that actually mattered.
i’m not going to ever get better. my bpd’s gonna strangle me the rest of my life.. so what’s the fucking point? might as well beat it to the punch, and sign off.

if a therapist were to evaluate me at this moment, i’d be fucked. grippy socks […]

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Contemplating Suicide

by brain.washed.youth
written by brain.washed.youth

will it ever get easier ?
ive tried many things to bring myself out if this dark place.
its like im stuck and every horrible thing is on replay.
and i just want the thoughts to stop.
maybe killing myself will make it all better.
write a note saying its not my families fault.
that i was just sad unhappy with the person ive become.
im fat , alone , suicidal , and just want to disappear for a while.
i want to be forgotten when i die so my family wont be sad.
i just want it to get better.

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Admitting it. And hoping someone is listening…

by Drake
written by Drake

This is the first time I’ve ever publically posted/said that I am in as much pain as I am. I’ve hidden it for years, even when I was a young teen. When I was little I thought everybody had bad days like mine: times when the world looked grey, when even speaking was difficult, when my soul felt sucked from me. I’m too afraid to truly come out and tell anyone around me how I really feel. They’ll all just say “Just put on a smile and look on the bright side” or “It’ll be okay, just buck up”. Can’t anyone see that I can’t […]

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Life has killed the life in me.

by lifekilledthelifeinme
written by lifekilledthelifeinme

I’m writing here to tell you guys how I feel. As one of the posts I read, this person implied that he/she isn’t suffering from anything dramatic such as a traumatic experience, death of loved ones, problems in relationships or family matters. I myself could say the same. Anyone would want a simple life like mine but guess what.. Even I’m suffering. I’m suffering in a way that doesn’t make sense at all. I think of contemplating suicide, some days more than others. Why? Because of these horrific and nightmarish thoughts I have. I can’t stand the fact of knowing we are like […]

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Today is like yesterday and tomorrow will be the same

by Sam
written by Sam

Everyday it’s the same torture. I wake up not wanting to get out of bed. I leave my room to get on the scale seeing a number that makes me cry. I won’t eat but 100 cals a day. I weigh 99 pounds but my body looks like it’s 160 pounds. My parents worry. I clench my teeth trying not to cry all day. I ask myself why I let it get this far. I hate myself for who I am and the things I do. I start to believe I deserve all of this. I miss my boyfriend so much, he can’t be here […]

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I Am No One

by Rain
written by Rain

Sometimes, I do wonder. How could hell be a place much worse than here? At least there, I’d know why I’m there. I dont know why I’m here. I’ve always wanted to be the person..the one who helps out that kid..the kid that no one knows is going through something, or feeling llonely, or contemplating suicide…I realized tonight that no one feels this way but me. I AM that kid.  The kid that silently feels like a screw up..the one who relies on men because they have no one else. The one who feels lonely and hides well enough that everyone thinks im fine. I […]

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by ablackrose
written by ablackrose

I have insomnia.  I have been diagnosed with servers depression and I really don’t know where to turn to anymore.  I am up all night and exhausted during the day.  I feel absolutely useless to my boyfriend who said to me that it will be ok and it isn’t because he is the one who has found me multiple times blacked out on the floor with a razor in hand.  I’m unemployed and unable to find work.  I am contemplating suicide and I just need someone to listen.

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exit bag ideas

by unlovable_me
written by unlovable_me

I was just reading through an online addition of the peaceful pill handbook (probably an outdated version, but oh well). If anyone has read some of my other posts, I have talked about how much I would like to use an exit bag. I don’t have any supplies gathered yet, but that’s because I’m trying to learn as much as I can about this method before I go out and do it. From what I can understand, gas is the most common “knocker outer” that is used with exit bags. I have considered buying a tank of helium or ********, maybe even both for good […]

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It Is Amazing…

by Katherine
written by Katherine

How worthless someone can you make you feel. How you confess your undying love for them and they take advantage of that. How can someone do that? Someone you thought could never ever ever hurt you. Truth is, life is full of ups and downs, with dissapointments, the only thing that matters is how exactly you take that infromation and apply it to your everyday life.

I have been with my boyfriend for a year now (someone who I should not be with due to a bad influence: Weed, drugs, alcohol), recently he had gotten into an accident (DWI) I told him I loved him as soon […]

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Is it possible for one person to be the only source of someone’s happiness?

by whyohwhysky
written by whyohwhysky

I believe so. My ex thinks that my suicide is foolish because I am lying to myself by thinking that he was my only happiness. He says that no one person can be the source of another’s only joy in life. Then how come I’m contemplating suicide for the first time ever? How come I’m so sad?

I have no family. I have no friends. I have no life, and now I don’t have him. Pathetic, I know. What’s more pathetic though is how long I’ve been haunting this website declaring my death and have no courage to actually do it. No courage to live, no […]

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affects of suicide

by vlee
written by vlee

I stumbled on this site looking for stories like mine i was devasted to find ppl contemplating suicide. i lost my fiance to suicide 8 mnths ago we were together 9yrs and soulmates I’m now 25yrs old and left to raise our 6yr old daughter alone i watch her cry for her dad every night as do i. i canot express or explain the pain i feel it is unbearable and to watch your daughters pain wile dealing with your own is enough to make u insaine. loosing a loved one to suicide is da worst way possible you are left with feelings of not […]

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Manic?

by crazienate
written by crazienate

I always find my self contemplating suicide at least four times a week.  But the weird thing is i’m one of the most happy/outgoing people i know i just get into theses moods where i feel nothing.  They last hours sometimes days where i’ll just sit and stare at my fan wishing i was dead.  I’ve tried killing myself twice before by hanging but both times the rope teared i failed to break my neck and only caused severe pain and would black out only to wake up to people trying to save me.

Does anyone else know what i’m going though and have any advice on how to cope with it? […]

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complicated feels man..

by b1urr
written by b1urr

i’m the type of person who hesitates to kill myself because i still have faith that maybe something good can happen. so i make a little agreement with myself; if nothing happens, if i’m not ever happy, within 2-3 months, i will die. every time i’ve done this i’ve met a wonderful person who seemed to be capable of being a good enough friend to make me decide to live an extra 3 or so months.

now that i’m with my girlfriend, this something good will nearly always be present which means i’m “safe” for a bit (or forever if she stays with me that long). but […]

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Well, here I am.

by sleeplessCartoonist
written by sleeplessCartoonist

I’ll be honest, I’m young- under eighteen, actually. I had a very close family member die when I was ten, and I’ve been bullied since I was five. I’ve been contemplating suicide since I was nine, and it’s only gotten worse. I would have offed myself quite a while ago, but I don’t want to cause my family any more pain. It’s still hard to get through the day, however.

I was searching the internet for some websites to help when I came across this. I decided to read some stories, and maybe get some advice. Following some of the advice that I’ve found, I decided […]

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suicide guitar

by jaikty
written by jaikty

Guitar on my lap,
sorrow in my rhymes,
try to write it out,
the sadness on my mind,

The ink won’t leave my pen,
it’s bottled up inside,
like the sadness in my heart
and the death that’s on my mind

Everyone thinks i’m fine
but really, deep down inside
contemplating suicide
to put an end to these sad times,

with a slash to my wrist,
my blood would soon run dry,
just a stain on the sheets,
and a tear in my eye.

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Tired of ADHD & Depression

by SinisterGirl93
written by SinisterGirl93

I know I’m only 19 and I have a lot of growing up to do, but I feel as if there’s no future for me to look forward to. I had a very hard life growing up, I had to deal with both physical and verbal abuse at the hands of my mother. I never received hugs, kisses or I love you’s from my mother. She rather beat the shit out of me everyday call me names like stupid, heffer, ungrateful and dumbass. My bi-o dad is not in my life.i haven’t seen the man I should call daddy since I was 2. He and […]

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THIS IS MY LAST RESORT.

by EvilBritBrat
written by EvilBritBrat

Would it be wrong, would it be right?
If I took my life tonight,
Chances are that I MIGHT.
Mutilation out of sight,
and I’m contemplating suicide.

I never realized I was spread too thin,
‘Til it was too late and I was empty within.
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
((It all started when I lost my mother,))
No love for myself and no love for another.
Searching to find a love upon a higher level,
Finding nothing but questions and devils.

I can’t go on living this way, nothing’s alright.

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Too Much

by katiebear12
written by katiebear12

i know i said im not ever going to post here again… but too much has happened since i decided not to post here anymore and im just absolutely terrified of every option i have as of this point… i’ve been so stressed out over the past two/three weeks and i’ve come to having panic attacks more than two times a day, almost every single day. first thing, Sunday night two/three weeks ago i was really struggling and i talked to one of my friends and she came to the conclusion that i was contemplating suicide, even though i didn’t say that exactly. so Monday […]

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For those of you being bullied and contemplating suicide…

by Oancu
written by Oancu

Listen to me.

I know what it’s like having to go to school, and dreading it, just to get bullied every day.  I have ADD and slight dyslexia (but you would never know it unless I told you), so I went to “special” classes because I learned differently.  I got picked on, constantly, until I finally beat the shit out of the kid for doing it (but I don’t recommend this), and after that, nobody fucked with me.  I know what it’s like.  I was afraid to go to school.  I used to beg my mum to let me stay home, and my grandfather told me […]

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Alone & broken

by lost and forgotten
written by lost and forgotten

This is the first time I have ever told anyone I have been contemplating suicide. Most people would say I have a good life, which I do agree, but I can’t find the motivation to want to help myself. I’m 21 and a college student with a criminal record already and have a family that I have secluded myself from. I want to write out my whole life story but I honestly don’t even care enough to do that. I just know that have suicidal thought on a daily basis isn’t normal. I know I have severe depression problems cause my mom has been diagnosed […]

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