I don’t know…

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I do have a sense of relief right now, since I found this page. And I know it seems stupid that something as simple as stumbling across a website can give me any relief from the way I feel right now, but I’ll take what I can get. I feel like things couldn’t possibly be any worse, but I know thats not true at all, because they have been worse before. I suppose it is a bit comforting to be able to get this off my chest without having the repercussions that telling an actual person can have. I just don’t want to do this anymore. I am sick of constantly feeling weak, and worthless, and like a huge failure no matter what I do. I am also sick of people telling me to “be more positive” and “someone has it worse” and “don’t worry, it will get better.” I feel like those phrases only seem to come from people who have never felt this way before. And I do not appreciate people belittling my problems by telling me someone has it worse. I am not saying they don’t, but I should be entitled to my feelings whether or not someone has it worse, without having to be told.  I guess the issue is I don’t feel like I am ever allowed to have my feelings. There is always some reason why I shouldn’t feel the way I do. I feel so angry right now. Sorry…