Hi everyone my name is Andy and im 18, i feel really sad because my life is not what i expected, my parents are really overprotective and i can hardly go out with my friends the only place where i can feel comfortable is in my school,because i can be with my friends,but they also notice the fact that i cant go anywhere so they dont invite me anymore because they know my parents wont let me and that its really frustrating even i hate to hear people talking about how i cant do anything, that my parents treat me like little girl im tired of the situation.
now the reason why i want to suicide is because last year i commited a lot of stupid thinhgs. i meet a guy, he was older than me and well we felt in love i really loved him and well he asked me if we could be boyfriends,i know my parents wouldnt agree with the idea of me having a boyfriend … older …, but i dont really care i loved him ill do ANYTHING for him, i told him it would be difficult but he didnt pay attention, he talk to my parents, he brought me serenade, he made a lot of things, but my parent never accept the relationship so we never went out together, some times he went to my home but my parents told my brothers to be there like chaperones ¬¬ really it was horrible but day by day i love him more.
the days go by and things turn more and more difficult at the end he end the relationship he told he cant stand it anymore! since then i feel really bad because he finished the relationship because my parents didnt let me be with him,i felt so powerless becuse of the fact that i cant control my own life !!!! then my friends start geting away for me i cant go to reunions with them my parents strat colding me in front of them,my friend have fear of them thy say they where really strict to me i cant do anything!! at the end…i was left alone… u.u
so i get in a very deep depression i try to talk to my parentes! but they dont hear me! i try a lot of times, the pain was horrible i start harming my self they notice that and nothing really changed they send me with a psicologist but he didnt helped to the situation, then i start drinking and made a lot of stupid things,horrible things,i hurt the few friend i have , i start smoking and made me pierciengs by the pass of the days my parents notice that, and they start hating me, my brohers too, they talk each other and say horrible things about me they say i was a slut i was an addict a crazy girl a stupid girl a horrible person that dont deserve having friend or a boyfriend that i was a shame to them…. and so many thing that hurt me-…. a lot!! u.u that night i try to suicide with pills but it dint work the only thing i get was a horrible stomakake . and thats why i hate my life i dont have anything! my family hate me , my friends they are not with me anymore because he things i did when i was drunk and because of my parents , and my exbofriend have a new girldfriend and reedo his life and i cant forget him i still love him but he dont…. i hate myself im nothing, i want to die ! i dont have nothing i lost it all i have try everthing to be better but nothing works i dont know what to do i want to die i hate my life i really want to be like everyone i want to go out i HATE beeing in room i fell so lonley! i want to have a normaml life … really i hate life i cant stand it! the fact that ill never do normal things like having a bofriend and friends and going to parties and to a dump , thinking of all the thing i want to be and i cant ! i feel hopeless i think life dont have any sense!! i have the worse self steam i know im not ugly or fat or else but i feel nothing i want to disappear … i tried to suicide so many times… i was thiking of escaping but i dont have a place to go or work or something ..but they are just ideas by the moment im caught in my own life in my room hating my life …please i need help :( i dont know if thin may help but i suffer bullyn inthe school so my past is not beautifil u.u IF YOU CAN HELP ME ill be reallly pleaed!! thanks for everything by the way u.u really thanks for reading this!! you are awesome persons! …. 🙂
4 comments
Gee, I’d be lying if I said I understand your situation well enough to offer advice. I think perhaps leaving your parents’ home while remaining in touch with them at a greater distance should be a long term goal. On the other hand, there are financial realities and also education to pursue.
Whatever you choose to do, I hope it works out well, and that you one day have mutual love in your life. Which you probably will, by the way, even though it doesn’t feel like it at the moment.
And I speak from experience.
You’re 18, I think you are old enough to make your own decisions. It’s sad that your parents aren’t more understanding of you, but if they are causing you so much misery by keeping you stuck at home, maybe you should disobey them once in a while and go out. It won’t be easy, but you need to show them that you have your own will. Show them that you CAN go out and have a social life and still be a responsible person.
Maybe my advice is totally off mark, but whatever you end up doing, hope you cheer up.
Save up money and move out. It won’t be easy, but you are 18 now. You are in charge of your own life.
i think i know whats up. padres son de jalisco eh? mexican parents will always be overprotective of their daughters. its deeply engraved in our culture that we must protect our woman from any harm or danger. even if that protection also keeps you from living your life. walls made to protect often deflect, they deflect knowledge and joy. really your best bet would be to move out. you do have to understand where theyre coming from. back then just going to get some leche could mean that you wind up kidnapped, raped, tortured and murdered. so they will forever have those scars in their brains from their upbringing.