Stay Low

My mood is low 24/7 and if its not its covered up by this fake cheezy smile that everyone parades around with. Why am I so low? Well im afraid that I’ll reach my happy state and lifes blocks will come crashing down and crush me. This is as low as I can go and I guess im staying here because nothing is worth the tears, isolation, lonliness…not even life. Theres no going any lower for me just like many of you im dead inside but continue breathing because our bodies tell us to, but every other part of our bodies tell us to leave this world full of hatred and pain. My time will come where I can finally be free and soar as high as I can, for being this low has taken its toll. I just hope my time will come soon!