Suicide–the final taboo

If you thought there were no taboos on the internet, you’re woefully full of shit.  There’s pornography, pedophilia, deviance of every kind, shape, and sort, people using and selling drugs–right on craigslist–bestiality, people shoving gerbils, grapes, and beads up each other’s asses–what could possibly be taboo on the internet, the ultimate cesspool?  Suicide.  That’s fucking hilarious.

Think there’s no censorship? Bullshit.  Google “suicide discussion forums,” then go to those sites and discuss suicide, and you’ll see how fast your ass gets banned.  Gee, if we don’t let anyone talk about suicide, then people will stop killing themselves.  Okay, yeah, that sounds about right.   I’ve been hung up on FOUR times by the suicide hotline.  No abuse, no cussing/swearing at the operator.  No, I asked a question.  I asked “why are you trying to prevent suicide?”  Yeah, that warrants a ‘click.’  If you can’t answer that question, you have no business working a suicide hotline.

Here’s the purpose of life as we’ve all drained it out to be: fuck, get drunk, get high, work a job.  Okay, I can’t possibly fill up decades with that pussified bullshit.  I’m just not nearly stupid enough to be able to pull that off.  But I’m a hostage here because YOU say so?  Where are you getting your authority?  If I’m nothing but a toilet here, what’s to stay for?

And the bashing.  Another kid committed suicide today:

http://www.wivb.com/dpp/news/erie/student-takes-their-own-life-at-school  (intentionally not posted as a link in case the site forbids hot-linking and prevents it from working.  Do a copy/paste.)

Here’s the drill: when someone’s thinking about getting the fuck out, call them names.  Make sure you show them all kinds of hostility and disdain.  Yeah, that works.  Call them ‘cowardly,’ ‘selfish,’ ‘trying to take the easy way out.’  I’ve known that since high school–if you call someone names, they’ll do what you want.  Hard to believe there are still people out there that think like that.  AFTER someone kill themselves, bow your head like the consummate hypocrite.  What? You were ripping them apart before they died.  What’s changed now, you two-faced fuck?

When they needed to talk, were you there?  Of course you weren’t.  You feigned concern while constantly steering them away from THE VERY THINGS THEY NEEDED TO TALK ABOUT, imposed your empty, pointless bullshit, and walked away leaving them in more pain than before you lied and said you’d ‘be there for them.’  Now they’re gone and you walk around still being bullshit, and telling people you tried so hard to reach out to them.  No, you decided the only thing they needed to talk about was food, partying, fucking (giggle, giggle, smirk), getting drunk (giggle, giggle, smirk), getting high (giggle, giggle, smirk), work, sports, and politics.   There’s just nothing at all going on inside you, is there?  Just all lights and clockwork?

I’m getting sick and tired of hearing that bullshit–‘talk to someone.’  Bullshit.  We spend literal years looking for someone we can talk to before we kill ourselves.  Why the fuck do you think those forums are so full of people and this site and anywhere else we can think of to go on the internet because we’ve tried everyone we know in real life and they’ve run for the cracks in the walls just like cockroaches.

Why the fuck do you think all the people making these posts on this site alone are reaching out in desperation trying to express their pain and frustration in these little boxes?  We DO try to talk to someone.  Flip that shit around to where it needs to be in the first place–‘if someone is in pain, be there for them when they need to talk.’  No, it’s not us, believe it or not.  It’s YOU.

Every single poster on this site knows what happens when you try to talk to a friend, relative, neighbor, coworker–you get a couple of bumper stickers and a shove, or you get some confused religious hypocrite shoving the invisible man, the great cosmic muffin at you.  I hurt like a mother fucker every single goddamn day, and who I need to talk to is Claude Raines?  Fuck you.  Outed for ‘bullshit.’ Fuck you.

I NEED SOMEBODY TO FUCKING TALK TO!  That’s the ‘unreasonable request.’  Bet your ass.  They’ll shove you at strangers (therapists who do NOT know you and only have clinical interest), at invisible people (god), the TV, the bar, any-fucking-where but the direction you need to go.  How about you just point me at someone who actually gives a shit so I can stop wasting your time and mine?

Yeah, suicide is the evil thing that must be censored all over the internet.  Okay, yeah, right.  If you have a suicide discussion board and you censor all talk of suicide and ban people on the verge of killing themselves, you render yourselves impotent to address the issue at all.  You’re bullshit.  As a matter of fact, in childishly refusing to supply a forum and an outlet, you are encouraging suicide.  Another avenue that leads to a brick wall.  Another turd on the pile.  If you want to discourage someone from suicide, shut down every avenue.

Yeah.  If someone kills themselves, don’t say “sad.” Sad for who, you confused piece of shit??  THEY found peace.  Or are you just trying to console yourself, fool yourself into thinking you had absolutely nothing to do with why that person wanted off the planet that fucking bad?  Sad for who?  You’re still stuck here.  Sad for you.  That’s like the people burning in hell praying for the people in heaven.  Stupid.  When someone’s doing so much better than you are, they don’t need shit from you.  YOU are the one who needs someone helping you, praying for you, mourning you.  YOU.  Not the person at peace who finally got what they wanted and needed.  YOU.  Being stuck here is what’s sad.

If you ignore something and police something and censor something and shut it out, it does NOT go away, idiot.  Welcome to earth.