Why A Death Wish,Why The Suffer.

I’ve Been Wanting To Die Since My Parents Committed Suicide.They Would Kill Themselves For Each Other But Not For Me. I Keep Thinking Of How It Would Feel I Died,How It Would Effect Other People. I Thrive On Pain,But How Can I Feel And See Their Pain If I’m Dead?I Don’t Know,But One Way Or Another Ill Make Them Pay,Two Birds With One Stone. I Stay Alive And Taunt My Parents With Depression And Ending Any Love,While I Feed On My Own Tormented Thoughts And Hurt The Ones Close To Me. I Want To Feel Their Sadness Breathing On My Neck And The Lust For My Life. I Want Them To Suffer. The More They Love Me The More I Can Hurt Them.I Want To Die.