Hopeless

Hey guys. I feel really dumb posting on this thing but I don’t know what to do. I have been feeling wicked low lately, well for a while but really really bad lately. I cannot even really put my finger on what is wrong. It just is. Everything feels awful to me. When I am with people I want to be alone and when I am alone I don’t want to be although when I am around other people I barely feel like I am even there. I can hardly think or get control of myself. I have no motivation and I feel empty and so heavy at the same time. I have a great family and I am healthy yet I am miserable. I feel like I am slowly dying and, honestly, lately I have been wishing that I could just die peacefully. Or even better, never have even existed although I know that is completely impossible. I need a major life change but I don’t know what to do. Nothing seems to work out and I am starting to panic a little bit. I just want to be happy. Maybe I am just dramatic . There are too many thoughts in my head to even write down. I am completely hopeless and it is torture.