I wish I could die tonite, just to close my eyes and sleep forever, no more pain…
I always wake up in the middle of the night feeling this huge hole in my hearth,
Trying to cope with everything that happened to me… thinking about what can I do but at the end to kill myself seems to be the only way out.
I want to sleep so badly! a new day is about  to start, what I’m going to do?? nothing, just stay at home. I wish I had a self destruction button, push and disappear.
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You and I both, I would have pushed it a long time ago.
i feel like Im going crazy, I’m so alone and so desperate :,( you wanna talk? what’s your story?
I think my self destruct button must be a time released one because I pushed it and slowly I am “self destructing”. I too wish for endless sleep, just to be free from everything.
sowhat, is it so bad for you that you want to die?
What I want the most is the make the pain go away, to stop this feelings, my hearth is so broken, I’m hopeless, spent the entire night looking for relief, thinking and thinking, to die seems to be the only way out, I’m not the kind of person that goes on a website like this just to fantasize about death… I really want to die like right now, afraid of try to take my own life, I know I can fail and wake up in a madhouse.
I asked that question because you seem in hope of finding something when you left me a comment on this train station. So I wonder where this pain coming from?
SilentBlue, I really liked what you wrote… I have spent the last 24hrs in this website trying to find a reason to leave or a reason to stay. We all feel so alone and we can understand each other, so maybe I’m hopping to make some new friends, maybe I’m hopping to find someone in this website that can rescue me or maybe I will find someone to rescue. The pain is taking over my mind. Dunno anything about you, but I have read many posts from very young people, that makes me sad. Young people has the ability to love, be kind and get better for sure, you guys can save each other for sure.
maybe the teens on here perhaps, I’m 28, that’s like past 48 in “Depress” years lol. Yeah this site has help my emotions to some degree, everyone coming on here is completely alone in their life, or they just unable to speak to the people around them. If you looking for reason to live, then that alone shows how much you want to live.
I’m not sure where your pain coming from, but I have pain of my own that very hard to deal with so I could understand to some degree.
I never felt this low before, I have had a hell of life but at the same time a beautiful life, I’m don’t have issues with myself or others, I love myself, but I have come to the conclusion that even thou the world is big and beautiful there is not place for me.I tried over and over and over again, I never met someone like me, I had such a determination of overcome adversity, I paid my duties I have struggled I have fought, lots of shit happened to me and my family so I’m done with suffer, really done I want to be a happy human being… I want to feel love, hope and peace, right now I just feel like a cockroach trying to survive… I dont want to survive I want to have a beautiful life… I dedicated my life to my little niece, she was born with a horrible form of brain cancer, I tried to save her and I failed…I tried to save myself and I can’t, nothing has worked out for me…don’t wanna keep on falling forever. If I die everything will stop…
I totally understand what you are feeling. I’m feeling that way too on the seemingly great July day. If you need to talk to someone email me
I can also relate to your feelings sowhat. Really sorry to hear about your niece.Zx
I wish so too, everyday. But we don’t have a choice and i’m becoming worse everyday. I started to like myself but now I hate everything. I just wish I didn’t have family, it would have been easier.