Im 21 years old and have attempted suicide 5 times. I was sexually and physically abused growing up by my alcoholic dad and emotionally and mentally abused by my mom.  I have been raped more times than i can count by more than 7 diferent people all belonging to the same group of friends. I got pregnant by one of them and that made me more depressed but then i became to welcome the fact that i would have someone i could love and would be loved back. at 21 and a half weeks on July 17, 2011 i gave birth to a stillborn 5 ounce baby girl who was measured to be 17 weeks along. I named her Adalynn. Her birthday is next week and not having her here is killing me and making it harder to cope with wanting to live. I just want to die to be with her. How can i make it through this?
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I’m sorry for your lose. You can make it through this, you can change the course of your life by starting to think positive and towards the future. Make Adalynn proud and fight for your life back. Fight through this because you can be such an inspiration for girls who are going through this. You could honestly become a councillor for girls who have or are going through this. Girls listen to other people who have gone through it. By you sticking around and fighting this, you can save the lives of others. That right there would make Adalynn proud because her mommy is doing something with her life and helping those in need. Take your negative experience and turn it into a positive experience. Make it into something beautiful and worthwhile. You are strong mother who can claim your life back. Don’t give up, keep pushing. You’re too amazing to stop now. Keep your head up.
Hi KelseyNichole. I’m truly sorry for what’s happened to you. Don’t try to do and be everything at once but try to take the next right step for you. Skyrider is right when s/he says you may be in a position to help a lot of people one day because of what you have managed to survive. It IS a testament to your strength that you’re here at all, and managing to ask for help. Please know that the folks here are good listeners and that they care. Lots of love, Zoe X
Wow.
I dont have “the” answer. Sorry, this is just so painful for you (I have to beleive). That no words could possibly end your pain. But here is my two cents…………
You are a parent. As a parent there is NOTHING that you want more for your child than to be happy and to be safe. Your daughter IS.
She is playing in heaven. She is giggling. She is loved. She is enjoying a warm sun on her face and a gentle breeze. The day WILL come when you get to hold her.
I know it sucks that you did not get to do that HERE. But the day will come. Until that day – KNOW that Christ is watching her and she IS happy.
Peace to you.