The unthinkable has happened, my worst fears have been realised and I can barley believe it . I have entered a deep pit of which there is no way out,  I guess I knew it was only a matter of time, but still I was unprepared for this. I have no idea how this happened to me, I used to be so happy, so full of hope, an A* student and athlete with the world at my feet, but my world has come crashing down. I know I will never smile again, never stop thinking about it, never have a brief moment of forgetting whats happening. Every waking moment I think of it, it is too painful. So this is it. I cant live like this, it is pointless, I am no longer human, no longer worth the space I take up, I have endured 17 years of life on this planet and this year will be my last. what I am experiencing right now is hell so I am ready for death. I will not be leaving a suicide note for my family, so anyone who reads this, You are reading my last words. Please enjoy your lives, live it to the fullest, seek help if you are troubled, find love and most importantly be happy, don’t end up like me, life is too precious.
Farewell world
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Hey – can we talk FIRST??? Please write me.
Hey – no hurry right???? No harm in talking first. And if you still want to – then I guess go ahead. But I would like to talk first and see if there is at least another option.
When what you think is the worst has happened, things can get maybe a tiny bit better. Because once the scariest has happened, you have nothing left to be scared of and nothing left to lose. This doesn’t have to be the end of the road, it could just be a turning point for you, or something you’ll be able to grow from and rise above. I don’t know. I don’t know you and I don’t know what you’ve suffered, but I do hope you’re okay and that you’ll be able to get through this eventually because I think we’re all connected in more ways than we’ll ever understand, and many things you’re not even aware of depend on you and on your life. You matter. Please remember that. I hope you’re still alive and reading this. If you are, here’s the sign to not give up just yet. There is still hope and always will be.
I do my best to look at life like a game of golf…one minute you’re in the sand trap or in the rough…then you launch a beautiful 3 wood on to the green, or chip in for birdie. We never know how a seemingly bad situation will turn out. But you have to stay in the game in order to watch that unfolding.
If you feel you’ve had enough…that’s alright. Life is precious & sometimes making the transition into the non-physical is what is necessary in order for you to re-establish the connection and love you need to feel. The Universe only supports our well-being. Suicide is not a negative only our perception of it. We need to align our beliefs with that which is positive and allows for freedom. So good luck to you. You are the only one who can quantify if life on Earth is worth continuing. I wish you a safe, and smooth transition into spirit. Be well!
Look talk to me please I listen and not judgemental will listen
Been there, lived through that. It is HELL. I understand. But I failed to die and had to live. I still wonder if it was worth it, but I did write some words that might apply.
“Sometimes still, I think I’ll never smile again. Except the difference now, I know I will.”
If you survive, you will smile again; and feel down again, and come back up and perhaps eventually have a good life.