I look at myself and all I see is failure. I’m so disgusted by myself I am sick to my stomach. I would like to think that if even one person showed me kindness and compassion than maybe there’s something to live for. Maybe I’m not destined to be alone and severely depressed for the rest of my life. God, I am such a pathetic excuse for a human being. I’m so fucking worthless. Who am I kidding huh? Did I honestly ever think that anybody could ever really truly love me? No.
Is a friend just to much to ask for? Or maybe I just don’t deserve even that much.
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Most people deserve to be loved and have a friend. Unfortunately a lot of people are assholes and don’t think about anyone but themselves. I had plenty of friends, and now I have only a few that I’ve known from 6-10 years. In all that time I’ve never really considered them real friends, I’ve never had one. When it comes down to it a friend is someone who is worried about you, who is there to comfort you and talk to you about your problems, someone who at least tries to understand and help you in any way they can. Someone who just hangs out with you isn’t really a friend so I know your pain all too well. Not having anyone to share your feelings and thoughts to and who you really are is extremely painful, not having anyone love you. Sorry, I know my comment wasn’t really helpful but I felt like I should post anyway.
Don’t be sorry, sometimes it’s just enough to know that I’m not always alone. So thank you
You’re not worthless nor are you pathetic and you should never think so. You were put on this earth with a purpose and you are destined to do great things, it just takes time. As for love, now that’s something that will come when you least expect it. But, how can you expect someone to truly love you when you don’t even love yourself? You have to be happy BEFORE the relationship in order for you to be happy DURING the relationship. The reason for that is because you cannot base your happiness off of the relationship you are in because when that relationship dies out, you should be able to be happy with yourself no matter what. You are beautiful, you are an amazing person and you should realize that because there are plenty of others out there that would agree.
I personally don’t agree with SkyRider’s opinion, no offense. You can’t always love things about yourself if you have no one to acknowledge the things that make you special or feel important. Not everyone can value themselves by themselves, it doesn’t work that way for everyone. Some can and others need someone else to appreciate them and show them love so they can love themselves.