I am new to this site.  I have been having suicidal thoughts for a while now…  I don’t really want to explain my situation, but to say the least, my life has been a complete failure and I want it to stop.  I don’t want to change my mind, I can’t fucking STAND ignorant people that are like “why you drink/smoke/do drugs?” Obviously because I’m lonely/depressed/have an addiction/want to forget my problems and I most certainly don’t want to talk about that.  I am not looking for sympathy, or all that jaz.  I am just looking for information.  My top choices would be 1. KCN or other cyanides, 2. Barbiturates or 3. benzodiazepines.  All cyanide salts seem extremely difficult to obtain.  I am a loner so I don’t have any connection to a dealer/pharmacist to obtain such lucrative drugs.  Sooooo, I’ve been trying to find alternatives online and so far I was reading about the “helium hood method.”  I read on Wikipedia how the sale of such bags are becoming heavily monitored by gov and thus now it looks like another lost cause…  Is there anything you guys would recommend?  More info somewhere to read?  Please reply here, of if you want, directly to my email at vincer777@hotmail.com
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You can just use a garbage bag or shopping bag… You dont have to buy a specific “hood”….
Just google about the helium hood… Once you make one, then you just put the bag on the top of your head (forehead), crunch it down letting all the air out, turn on the helium and leave it going… When its full, and you are ready… Exhale as much as you can, and then pull the bag over your head down to your neck and make sure no helium gets out or oxeygen gets in. Then take a DEEP breathe in, within 30 seconds or so your gone….
I was thinking about cyanide… That may work painlessly.
I would advise you think very hard about it before doing anything, maybe even talk with some people here… Lots are willing to help, before you do anything drastic.
“Helium Exit Bag” I meant….
I just tried this method an hr ago and it did not work for me. I’m very pissed b.c. I’m ready to go and now I feel sick to my stomach. I did exactly wat u mentioned above on how to do it… but sumhow it failed… I had it over me for about a min and tried it twice… but failed both times… the only thing I can think of is sumhow oxygen got in the bag altho I did crunch the bag and filled it with helium on my forhead… so I’m not totally for sure what happened. I followed this video…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qsQUhpIxzAs&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Apparantly it may take more than just one breath… between 1 and 3 I would think.
mail me at nilesht65 at yahoo dot com , i have kcn in powdered form.plz be fast to mail in.
hi, folks…. i have got cyanide in its purest form …… feel free to contact me on d4aniel_90 at hotmail . com
kindly uys , be fast to mail in as i too am going to ctb soon.. bye!
thanks daniel for sending it to me.
thanks dude!@ nemb # daniel
joe_gijoe and daniel, you are the same fucking person (and is it a coincidence that neraj has 1_90 at the end of his name too?). This has been pointed out several times to you and yet you keep up with the fake identities. Sort it out.
If you want kcn mail me , i have been supplying it for last 2 years without any complaints about shipping . My email is nilesht65 at yahoo dot com.
When you die please remember that IF my understanding of the death state is right then you will need to use the power of visualization to free yourself from confusion and even from your demon. when you find yourself trapped inside your demon you must visualize yourself outside of your demon. I know I am Crazy But please give this some thought.
I successfully collected my kcn powder package from my PO Box address. I used nilesht65 @ yahoo. com. The package was dispatched and i was provided with a tracking number , it arrived within 7 daysof dispatch.
My supplier made a great effort to disguise the flat-pack hidden in a greeting card, used a plain envelope without the company reference.
They will ship via EMS courier door to door, but this was not convenient for me, so they shipped by registered mail to my PO Box. The post office required ID and signature for me to collect, and as I had not given the supplier my real name it could have been a problem, but luckily it wasn’t.
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I found nilesh straight forward to deal with