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Loner

Grades and stuff

by NumbExhaustion 5/15/2018

written by NumbExhaustion

Ugh. I feel like I’m falling behind everyone. Like, I used to be top of my class and now I have a D in WHAP. (AP World History). I can’t answer anything correctly and like, every time I think I know the answer and pick it I end up missing the question no matter how much I study. The AP test is Thursday and I am so so so not ready for it. I’m studying like crazy and I still think it’s not enough.

Like, I’m not even supposed to be here yet I am and then I can’t see myself next year and I can’t […]

5/15/2018 2 comments

I won’t be able to handle life anymore

by sugarcoated 9/7/2017

written by sugarcoated

I am 16 and in a week I’ll be 17.

Today my dad spoke with my teachers and talked about how I’m doing in school (grade 11).

The usual stuff they say:

• I’m quiet

• I sit alone (in some classes)

• I don’t participate in classes

those kind of things.

My teachers also said how bad I’m doing. And my parents didn’t react that well.

My dad is pissed at me.

And my mum hates me. She always says that “I’m useless” and that “no one will hire me for a job” and that “I’ll be picking up garbage and living on the streets.” And she’s always adds that “I’ll be dead […]

9/7/2017 9 comments

Loner

by secret me 5/23/2016

written by secret me

I just finished my college classes and I’m in vacation now.

I called up my old friends but none of them wanted to hangout.. So I’m not going to insist.

I just wanted to have some sort of fun before I start classes again this summer. Which is in like 13 days.

It just sucks that I have no friends to hangout with or share my interest with.

And I constantly ask myself, is there something wrong with me? Because it seems like I just can’t keep friends or make them.

Anyways people aren’t What they used to be.

I remember having so many friends that actually cared about me but […]

5/23/2016 1 comment

Loner

by nuclearbackpack 4/30/2016

written by nuclearbackpack

I’ve just come back from a long late night walk [UK] on a Saturday night [weirdo uh?]. Just to try and beat the massive psychosomatic anxiety for a while. I am incredibly lonely, the only people I talk to are my aging parents. The world is a terrifying and unforgiving place for meek people like me. The isolation is slowly sending me insane. My parents know I’m deeply depressed but not that I crave death. I feel I live in a world full of happy people who will never understand or feel the pain people like me do so they will never understand or empathize. […]

4/30/2016 6 comments

My life is upside down.

by greenone 7/16/2014

written by greenone

It’s been three months since you left me, I lost all my friends as we shared the same friends, yet worst of all I lost my best friend – you. I had to find my house, out alone in the cold without you. All my friends left me, they couldn’t bear the tension between us, my friends lived with us, none of them have contacted me. Every night I have nightmares about you. The last time I slept safe and sound was when I was in your arms. How could you have taken everything away from me? Don’t tell me this is a first world […]

7/16/2014 0 comment

My story,my life

by BIGRICH 9/9/2013

written by BIGRICH

Hello everyone, I have been on this site for a while,never really spoke about myself,not sure if someone is going to read this,but here goes anyway.I grew up in Brooklyn NY,im male Hispanic 36 years old.I never felt like I was a part of this world, I always felt different,always had different feelings towards people,feelings of compassion of helping others out.I never really understood why people were so evil.Why everyone just mostly cared about themselves.As a boy this is how I saw the world (and still do as an adult).Growing up I had 2 parents.For the most part my mother was always sweet and loving,never […]

9/9/2013 1 comment

My Stories

by HunterBrown 8/28/2013

written by HunterBrown

there are an awful lot of stories on this site, but every story is different right? the base feelings of despair are mixed into all of them, but how you came to be there and what you plan to do is always different. most of us are suicidal, hence the name “the suicide project” i suppose. i am no exception. but maybe it’s time i told the whole story of how i came to be here and what i plan to do.
my story is not filled with rape or abuse or anything like that. ive never been the loner at the back of the […]

8/28/2013 2 comments

Memory

by -alone- 8/5/2013

written by -alone-

Dear, “Friend.”
It hurts.
You’re my friend, or at least I thought you were…
I’m not a toy that you can use.
I have feelings.
You are not here when I need you, you don’t care.
When I cry out for help, you act like you didn’t hear.
You call me a loner, but I’m trying to talk.
But you wont let me… You’re scared of me leaving.
I’m a loner.
I’m a weirdo.
I’m nothing.
I’m a *****.
Oh, It hurts.
Keep calling me names, It will only make me worse.
You say you’re kidding, just playing around.
But look closer at me what […]

8/5/2013 0 comment

Asking For Help

by Nunu :] 7/15/2013

written by Nunu :]

For about 4 Â½ years Iâ€™ve been unhappy, but never had the thought of suicide crossed my mind until I entered high school. (Itâ€™s not one of those things where Iâ€™m a loner and had no friends). I actually have had aÂ lot of friends my whole life but I always felt like a hole and I was always just sad for no reason, so recently I started therapy for family reasons and my therapist ran a few tests and I go back July 30 to see if I can be diagnosed clinically depressed. Around February I became extremely rebellious an unhappy and I would […]

7/15/2013 3 comments

by hopefuldreamer 5/21/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

I’m kind of feeling bitter and angryÂ I never realized how badly bullying affected me forget bullying for a moment I remember how bad I felt and whenever I felt it was too much I’d try to go to someone to talk about how it made me feel but nobody seemed to take me seriously and stopped talking but the thing is I guess I started to treat myself badly and I began wishing everything about me was different and whenever I hurt emotionally it kind of brought me satisfaction in someway because I felt like someone would eventually care but it never happened so I […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

lonely, embarrassed and hating life

by Landon1084 4/29/2013

written by Landon1084

I can’t take the loneliness anymore. I have been a loner most of my life and all I want is to meet one other person that I can relate to and maybe have a companion. What started out as shyness has turned into self loathing and shame. I try to be friendly and positive to try and attract friends and partners, but I have to be artificial to get people to like me and I feel like I can’t let anyone get too close to me. I haven’t had any actual friends since I was a kid and I’ve only been with one girl. I […]

4/29/2013 6 comments

my life

by rutabagajackson 4/28/2013

written by rutabagajackson

Hi, this post is just about me and why i decided to join. its not some inspirational story to make you change your mind. just me and my experiences. I joined cause I needed someone to listen who understood or could relate.

It all starts with my brother, we were insepreable as childeren and got along fabulously, but as soon and me moved across the country and we had to make new friends we stopped talking. he bacame an athlete I became the geek, (cliche i know) he had all the friends I spent elemetary with none. After a while I became very angry at everything […]

4/28/2013 1 comment

My Story

by just a guy 4/27/2013

written by just a guy

Hello,

I’m glad I found this website, if only to vent and see that are other folks in same boat (not that I’m happy about that).

My Story

I’m a 48 year-old male.Â Been diabetic for about 20 years.Â I been somewhat suicidal starting in my teens.Â I grew up in a fucked-up white trash family.Â Mom is a religious freak with little or no employable skills.Â My father has all sorts of mental issues and was quite abusive growing up.Â I decided to move out of state when I was 21 but at the time I getting along OK with my parents.Â I wasn’t kicked out or […]

4/27/2013 3 comments

I’m glad it’s over

by Ribbons-on-my-skin 4/26/2013

written by Ribbons-on-my-skin

So…It’s been a clichÃ© to say that you feel that your heart is shattered into millions of pieces because your boyfriend or girlfriend broke up with you, but I have to admit that I’m my case, I’m sorta glad my relationship is over. About two hours ago my “boyfriend” broke up with me because I didn’t text him back…I know, stupid right? But anyways, all he said is “I’m leaving you” and all I said was “okay” and I didn’t burst into tears or jump up and down laughing, I mean, I honestly had no reaction, life went on and I don’t feel horrible or […]

4/26/2013 0 comment

by hopefuldreamer 4/2/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

It really surprises me how my mood can go from being OK (I wasn’t entirely happy) to Â me feeling like utter scum. I started talking more in lunch and fifth period and I usually don’t talk so whenever I do I feel like people just look at me like “why do you even open?” because of the looks they give me, but that doesn’t bother me that much compared to talking to the people you like because it feels like “am I annoying to you?” Â I don’t know maybe school’s just another trigger for me but I feel like “look at all these people probably […]

4/2/2013 0 comment

Catharsis.

by cassafrass.x 2/18/2013

written by cassafrass.x

It seems almost childish to be posting something here – from my perspective anyway. I’ve always associated some sort of guilt with sharing. Â I’ve never been great at articulating my feelings well, and I’ve never found much comfort in expressing them, regardless. I’m not exactly sure what I’m even searching for by registering here. Closure? Comfort in confiding in countless, faceless others? Furthermore, I’m not even certain that, after posting this, I’ll even bother to return and read the comments – again, I’m uncertain as to my feelings regarding this. Fear, perhaps? Or maybe it seems unnecessary, as my only goal was, ultimately, expressing this […]

2/18/2013 2 comments

My Story

by nickoli2095 2/10/2013

written by nickoli2095

So I guess since I just registered I should write my story? I don’t know.

So currently I’m 17. My name’s Nick. I live in New York. I’m a senior in high school and a non-matriculated college student at the local community college.

So previous to high school, I was kind of a loner. I was (and still am) the fat kid and I was a loner. My only real friend was my friend Trevor since 3rd Grade. So yeah people made fun of me a lot and no one really stopped until one day this kid, Chris, was really just picking on me. I was having […]

2/10/2013 2 comments

by juesee 11/4/2012

written by juesee

Anyone out there having trouble living your life also?

Fuck, I just want to give up everything and die.

I’m tired of explaining everything to everyone about why I have erratic moods, why I need help, why I’m not as normal as everybody fucking thinks. I’m so miserable living my life. I basically lay down in bed, thinking of all things I have to do, shouldn’t forget to do… but I just can’t get up. I wake up so late in the afternoon that myÂ day is halfway gone. I eat, use the bathroom, then go back to my room. In my room, I’m on my laptop, on […]

11/4/2012 1 comment

I Wish I was Pretty

by Gumpy 10/27/2012

written by Gumpy

It’s the one thing that i’ve always wanted to be. Pretty and perfect. When i was a little girl, i was pretty and happy. No one every told me that i’m ugly or did anything to make me sad. But now, I’ve turned into some ogre just wanting to burst out. Every time i see someone pretty, i get really jealous and just wanting to hide away. All of my friends are really pretty and it’s hard to know that you’re the odd one out, the only one that’s ugly. On those 2 days of the week, when i have P.E (sport days), i get […]

10/27/2012 30 comments

Can’t get away from the nightmares..

by RuinedDreams 10/16/2012

written by RuinedDreams

So every single morning, I wake up. Obviously, either wise i wouldnt be here right now and you wouldn’t be reading this crappy entry. but oh well. anyways, i do my normal routine, get ready for school, stare at myself in the mirror, criticize myself, decide whether or not i should skip breakfast, blahblahblah. sounding familiar? .. then i get to school, dont know who to be around with in the morning, should i hang out with my backstabbing friends , or be a loner and get looks and shit? i choose the latter most times. school goes pretty fine, heart hurts everytime i see […]

10/16/2012 2 comments

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