One question.

I see it as more of a lifestyle in some ways. Is suicide something you are willing to do? Everyone has different answers to this.
Some people say never. Some people say maybe, if some conditions are met (lacking hope for a better life, pain, etc). Some people never think about it. And some people (like me) think suicide is something you want to do /for/ fun. Suicide really is the way I want to die.

But I would love to have some sex – but the most important part is being loved back. I think many people here feel unloved. I think being able to cuddle with someone would be far more gratifying. I want to hug someone and cry on their shoulder. I feel that would be far better than sex.

But eventually, the pain returns. Just crying doesn’t fix your problems; having sex doesn’t make like any easier – just more tolerable for a short period of time.

Hope that makes sense.