This was taken the last day of being at a GroupHome the First time I was in it, as u can see I am very happy And all Smiles. I wanted to Escape and get away from it, as u can see I am the only white girl, I’m very self conscious that’s why I’m slanted cause I don’t like being Tall, Everyone Where I live is normally 5’1 and 5’0 but im 5’4 1/2 so I get self conscious , I Also Ran-away from this GroupHome, the staff were horrible I couldn’t Visit my family and I was Basically ridiculed for breaking out and […]
July 2012
This is who I am, Idk if it’s Alright to post pictures, but as u can See I’m regular and their a story behind Everyones smile and eyes. My posts are about life, This was actually taken at the groupHome iWas living at ..
Hey everyone, long story short ive gone through way too much in my life for too long and it continues i debate taking my life constantly but i stay alive i cant take no more yet i keep going, anyway, i just hope that people are using this site to be able to relate to each other and talk to each other and help each other, so that us that feel alone, dont have to anymore…if i could be there for everyone i would but ill keep trying cause nobody deserves to feel the way we do…if anyone ever wants to just talk or just […]
So it accured to me, as I was reminiscing about my life. I made a yahoo chat account and didn’t want to use my actual name in the name field, so I put Cindy Cambell as a disguise….Sometimes I wonder how much people value thier lives.
I found out I was Pregnant about 4 months ago. I took two pregnancy tests and both came out positive , that night I started to Spot blood. Everyone Said it was normal, but My body was saying something else. I started having tummy pains and I couldn’t eat or drink anything with out me thinking it’s nasty. The next morning I was Bleeding a Little more so my opinion was that since this is my First pregnancy that my body wasn’t used to me not having my period so I didn’t think bad thoughts. Well now my Stomach is in complete pain and now […]
You messed up again , u Had Nothing to Prove .Â
U Don’t Love me , whats their to Loose …
You look me In the Eye But All u can say is Lies, made up Stories and Fake Alibis ..
How Can I Be able To trust when   I stress to Much, I’m confused to Kno if this love or is it just Lust …
I Cry so Many Nights SleeplessÂ
Trying to Win the Fight,Â
Hanging on to this relationship really tight .Â
Now im Loosing my gripÂ
My heart is Sinking like a flooded ship ..
Still hanging on at the […]
theirs a lonely girl im the corner of the bed . Crying about something that her nana just said. She is nothing to every one and every one is nothing to her … Going on life like this she see’s it as a blur …going place to place,home to home ,trying to fined some one that would make her feel loved … But to her thats something she’ll never be apart of … As she’s crying all alone in the corner her bed … She’s remembering the hurtful past that forever stays in her head ..she wants to die of all the pain that people […]
Life was hard growing up. When I was a child I was surrounded by drugs, nasty men, abuse, rape etc.
My mom was not like the moms you see on TV, she had supported my brother and I by stripping, she also sold and was addicted to drugs. She was clinically diagnosed as being bipolar, and schizophrenic.. She always put drugs above me and my brother. most of the time my Nana would take care of me but only when she wasn’t working. My mom, the main person who was supposed to be my protector let numerous men in and out of our lives. The last […]
Dear Jackie, I remember a lot of years you had a lot of issues. I saw the cuts on your wrist.. and when we asked you, you told us they were the cat. I guess I believed you at first but then it came clear. your step father raped you.. you had deliberatley hurt yourself.. I was wrong to say all of the things I said to you in front of people.. I didnt know how hard it was to deal with those things. I truly am sorry.. I now know what its like to feel these feelings.. I know what its like to be […]
The first time that i self-harmed i was 13 and i used a safety pin since it was the only sharp object i had at the time,actually i still use a safety pin,idk something about it is just so much more convenient for me.Now i was wondering about other people’s self-harm stories,like When did you start and why,kind of stuff? Idk im just curious is all ^.^
1:30 A.M.
Ghosts of my dreams of voices hit me randomly. I can’t explain what I hear, but it sounds like a voice, but like a broken record player rapidly replays what it said, anxiety fills me and then the continuous ringing fills my ears again.
I wonder when I’ll dream of it again.Â
7:10A.M.
Dreamt i was part of a program to test things for money. We started out on a metal bed where I laid down and it began descending. Quicker and quicker until I was free failing. While there i was freaking out until i realized it would lead to my death so […]
“She was alone and she did not like it. When she was alone she had to think and, these days, thoughts were not so pleasant.†― Margaret Mitchell, Gone With the Wind
I’m sorry. I’m sorry to bother you. I’m just lonely. I had to make some kind of contact. I don’t expect anyone to comment on this.
This is long and scattered and weird, but if I don’t let everything out on here I’m gonna let it out on my skin, so… read, or don’t..
Starting in January this year, things have been getting easier. Near the end of school and beginning of summer break, life was great. Better than it’s been in years. Always hanging with my girlfriend, we stopped fighting ever… i was sometimes depressed but always ok! It was great, it was… unbelievable.
When I realized how unbelievably easier my life had been to tolorate recently, I started to think of the future. Things can’t be this easy forever. Eventually I’m gonna have hard shit […]
I know that somebody posted about this yesterday but I wanted to put my 2 pence in. So a little context about me, I’m gay and I live in England. I’m also mixed race (basically I’m the klu klux klan/BNP/neo nazis worst nightmare) I’ve suffered some serious abuse in the past and lost family due to my sexuality, as well as some extreme racist abuse! What I don’t understand is why people are still both homophobic and racist today! And for that matter sexist and any other ist!
My first annoyance about the abuse is homophobia and the whole ‘its a choice’ bollocks! No it isn’t, […]
I’ve been divorced for five years and haven’t managed to get into another relationship. I hate living alone, am now 44, will never have a family of my own, am watching my friends pair up as I go home every night to cats. All of my relationships have been with extremely selfish men and even many of my friends have been disappointing. I’m an atheist and frequently feel as though I am the only person I know with any sense of right and wrong and how we should treat one another. When my ex best friend is now happy because she cheated on her husband […]
i hate my life!! i don’t see the point in this world. maybe this is hell… seem like it is bc most people have to understand that they have to shut their fucking mouths bc it hurts other people way to much. people need to know what it is like to live lives like us. we need to teach them all the hell they are putting us threw. all i want to do is die the only thing that keeps me hear is my mother. my ex best friend just has to be a ***** to me and that makes me depressed even more. if she hates me so much why doesn’t […]
I hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him I FUCKING HATE HIM. I keep trying to tell him he’s gonna regret the way he treats me and it would hit him hard and suddenly. Why can’t he see I’m dying? He’ll feel it when I’m gone… Then maybe he’ll learn his lesson and treat her right too… She acts like it’s nothing, but he’s hurting her too…. She’s got enough aggrivation with my stepdad, she doesn’t have to deal with Aedan too… I fucking hate him… I hope when he finds out […]
A man walked through the valley of death to speak to his creator. He had only one question plaguing his tainted mind.
“What is the meaning of life?”, he dared ask the being.
To which the being smiled and said, “You are merely here to entertain, and I like to watch you suffer.”
you can still email me, but I can text more often than I can email so if anyone wants, I could use the company <3
-lonely puppy here -.-
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I just woke up a few minutes ago. I was just resting my head on my pillow when that feeling hit. Boom. How do I know I actually exist? Why do I feel like I’ve seriously been here before. It keeps nagging me in the back of my brain. It wake me up abruptly from a night of rest or just before. I hate how it does that. Stop bothering me with these thoughts. That and my memories. I understand they happened. I understand one day I will die. STOP REMINDING ME. That’s all my brain does it just reminds me like I don’t already […]