i have very low self esteem. i spend all day online looking at ways to make myself prettier- makeup tricks, hair tricks, fashion tips. i shop a lot and keep up with latest trends and i always try to look good. i want to please those around me- my husband my family. everyone is always looking their best, they criticize me when i do not wear makeup or have my hair done. they look down on me. this morning i was feeling down and ugly like i always do while watching some beauty videos on youtube. i was listening to the TV about how to be sensual towards your husband, and get his attention. suddenly i decided to just jump into bed with my husband and wake him up with kisses and cuddles- something that i rarely do. i just wanted to show him some love and hold him. he woke up and just…hit me. he pushed me away really hard. he pushed and shoved me a few other times. i felt so stupid. i started to cry. i felt sick to my stomach. i felt so hurt and worthless. i still feel hurt. he just stared at me crying. almost like he was satisfied. i got out of bed and walked away. he is now sleeping again. he looks content and like he doesn’t care that he just hurt me so much. i feel so undesirable. i feel like unworthy of love. i want to die. i don’t want to be in this world anymore. i want a divorce. i want to feel liked and accepted for once.
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I am so sorry to hear that your hubby is STUPID.
Please do not think all guys are like this.
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Very sad when you have somebody there not knowin how beautiful you are. You kno if your unhappy you should divorce. Go out && explore what you’ve been missing, I’m sure somebody will appreciate what your husband didn’t.. Your beautiful. && you dnt have to be by looks. What makes someone beautiful is there heart. It takes courage too post your sorties online. && dnt evr let No man take that beauty away from you, or put there hands on you evr! You are NOT a dog. Hopes this helps you… Please feel free to email me.. c.garciaa0623@gmail.com
Divorce him. I know the old saying goes “If you dont take care of your wife someone else will” but I choose to think of it as “If you dont take care of me I’ll find someone else who will”. I’m not saying you should cheat, I’m just saying you should find someone else to live your life with.
If I had a wife and she rarely did that but did do It,I’d feel like on top of the world!
Feel free to come over my house and love up on me 🙂 <3 any woman (of legal age) any shape, size or color hat want to jump in my bed for some kissytime will never be rejected
True beauty is natural beauty – period … make up and hair dos are just a means to cover flaws because they are insecure or unhappy with their looks. Make up and hair dos should be used to enhance natural beauty
lover dawg
^that has to be my favourite comment on this whole site..