They say not to go back to your ex. He’s bad. He doesnt deserve you. He doesnt care about you.
In the back of my mind I know theyre right…but the same people that tell me this can never provide the comfort he gives me when he isnt yelling, throwing things, or calling me names.
None of them are never there at times like these..when I need someone to talk to..and he’s asleep on the phone right now…all i have to do his wake him up and he’ll clear his throat and say “yeah babe? Were you saying something?”
But where are all of you…you dont exist. You are nowhere to be found.
Well im tired of being lonely.
It’s either him or suicide. Rock and a hard place. Well at least I know what the rock is…i’ll make my bed here for now..but as a warning, that hard place is looking softer each day.
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splendid. it’s amazing what the desire to evade loneliness can do. are you far away? the need for a flesh and blood companion is something i know well. i’m lucky enough that my companion is kind but i place a burden upon her. she is the only thing that keeps me alive. i wonder how a person lives with that.
does your companion know how important he is to you?
you’d almost think that all the lonely people could just pair up. if only it were so simple.
Oh dear, i suppose i’m just ranting. You see, my “companion” is my ex boyfriend and he was absolutely terrible to me. My other friends have warned to keep away from him, but he is the only one that can even stand talking to me for more than an hour. My friend..he is the only person that keeps me alive..talks to me almost every night, tells me that i can do better than my ex, but he’s so far away that..well, my, I havent had a good hug in months. I need it. It’s like a drug…companionship. I’m ever so sorry that you actually understand. I wouldnt wish this on anyone.
I dont think anyone understands how important they are to me, John.
Oh yes, that thought does skip across my mind oft times when I’m in my bed, staring up at the ceiling and thinking that i’ll either have to settle for my ex or be alone for the rest of my life…I can’t be alone. Not again.
Rain do yiu remember me? I miss you T.T what’s up? How are you? I know loneliness sucks cuz thats where i am right now. My ex talks to me as well even though i should just move on
AtTheEnd…how could I forget you. You’ve always been there when you could to offer an encouraging word or not make me feel so damned lonely. I miss you too. Nothings up..other than what I post on here. I’d normally say I’m fine, but that would be an obvious lie. I’m sorry youre lonely. I wouldnt wish it on anyone. Especially you. Oh, I know how it feels to still be in contact with someone you should forget. Im sorry about that…Hang in there. And thank you for reading.
Yay im not forgotten! You should email me :/ i wanna keep you company ateast through email :3 that way maybe we wont be so damn lonely and talking to our ex’s. I’m glad you’re being honest about how you are feeling. Anyway i hope you decide to email me if so just tell me and ill send one asap (:
Awh do you really mean it? please email me. That would be amazing…my email is rainalicia@ymail.com
Youre saving my life here <3
look at my poem at the end
Hi Alicia, I can relate too to the whole ex/need for companionship scenario. I felt kinda trapped for months with my ex because I was so depressed I couldn’t envisage ever being able to form another relationship. Thought he was the only one that would put up with me, etc. I’ve kicked him out now, cause i feel quite strong at the moment. I just hope I can make it stick cause I know the relationship’s going nowhere fast. The human and creaturely need for companionship is not something any of us can dismiss or deny. If I fall back into that depression (don’t think I will, HOPE I won’t) I can’t answer for whether I’ll be able to stay strong and keep away from him…
It’s not easy living alone, but living alone and depressed is worse…Z x
I’m lonely to:/I miss cuddlinq!haha I sound so qay riqht now but I don’t care,When I cuddle with someone It’s like I feel Important.And I just love havinq human connection you know?I think I’m a nympho?I’m weird haha.I wish you lived over here so I can show you how a man’s suppose to treat you!All the name callinq and throwinq stuff will never happen with me.I’m the quy that will treasure you.I just want to be In love aqain!
So yeah If you want to be smothered with comments and be treated the way your suppose to be treated then hit me up;)832-859-7416.