wells, idk what to call today, good or bad? its a cross. yeah but more lows then highs unfortunately. i have a weird feeling to cut, i cant, gotta be strong. its been 3 weeks why break? idk i thought i was doing so well. i was wrong. i fake it too well. now here i am falling apart. im becoming me. and its showing. my wall is tearing down. im becoming uncovered. idk what i want, god im crazy. im so messed up. im losin it. ugh why? me? ugh. sad? lonely? happy? together? mad? slow? fast? nice? a *****? idk what i am. i never will but then i wouldnt know if my wall is falling apart. i know NOTHING. cant this all just be a dream. so i can wake up and my life was amazing, i was amazing. nothing was wrong. if only. uhhhh. yeah.
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Hi, I’m curious, could i ask how long you been cutting?
Ok never mind, you say on your profile… lol. I don’t do so anymore. It use to be a great stress release for me long ago.
@silentblue: idk why i do it, not ti relieve stress but more to just have something new to look at once the cuts are made.
I don’t look down on cutting (I used to do it a lot), but congrats on the 3 weeks, and trying not to cut! Stay strong, and if it happens just try again(no biggie). You know that crappy saying “It isn’t how many times you fall, its how many times you get up” kind of thing. It kind of does apply 🙂
Took me years to stop, and yeah I’ll get that nagging feeling sometimes. But I dunno so far been like… 3-4 years since I last did it? Actually, I found a really great hobby that helped me a lot, and I dunno got lucky that it worked out for me. annnd I’m by no means mister talented/special etc. So.. yeah keep trying 🙂
-Cheers
@acommoncold: wow 3-4yrs! thats awesome, i sadly had to give in, but whatever, ur right that saying does somewhat apply.