im new to this website, and i need advice!
ever since i was little i was always never thought of . as i have gotten older my anger problems have increased and i hate hurtin anyoneso i wish there was some way i could control that. its not that i would want to hurt someone, its that i want to DIE.I have been wanting to for a very long time. why would anyone want to live in a world where noone cares about you,when people would care less if you were alive, when all people have to say it negitive things. Your very own other telling people that i have problems and to watch out for me. everytime i get a new friend/boyfriend my mother brings up my rough child hood and therefor i cant move on its like im stuck in time no escape except to kill myself. I wish i knew a quick painless way ! Please help me figure this out i would like to die peacefully, ive never been at peace before!
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Is your full name rachel?…
No im sorry.
No no dont be sorry i just thought you might a frien of mine…sorry for bothering..
my first name is Raven.
Oh my…why thats…thats quite wonderful. I love it. Ive never met a raven…such a cool name.
ha, well thank you! Yeah i was named after “Thats so Raven” when she acted as olivia on the Cosby show lol its unusual
I thought younwere named after one of the teen titans ya know the alien gray skinned girl with dark magic powers :3 So since you posted…how are you? Whats wrong?
haha no never heard of “it”! but no its like every day gets worse and i see a therapist and try diffrent ways of doing things but it never works i feel like im going crazy. since a young age i feel like i have been mentally abused and people keep telling your this and that when u know inside your not but after hearing something for so long you believe it and its driving me crazy.
Oh my. Well try switching therapist? Sometimes its notnthe therapynits the therapist…my first therapist made me feel like crap. As for the people telling you what you are…look deep within yourself and you will see if you are what they say you are or not :c thats my best advice u.u
idk who to go to. I have noone. i try to turn to family and they say im crazy or some negitive term! Never help they never want to understand. They dont understnd that are diffrent people in this world that have problems, serious problems and dont take things the way they do. they just dont want to accept me . thats why i have turned to suicide as my way out. its been 20 years now. if i was going to have any resolution it would have already came.
Oh…dont turn to family…the ones closest to us are sometimes blind to whats really happening. Professional help is best. Please dont give up…i cant say life will get better but…life is so magical…its just something you have to try and survive..im being hypocritical cuz i wanna die but you shodnt die >.<
i really wish i could explain to you what i do go through but i just can never get it out. i feel like i can never talk because i was always told to br quiet so i dont know how to express my feelings. but why do you not want to live in such a “magical’ world? i hate it life is so hard for me.
Because im not a good person…today i made a comment on a post that started a bloodbath of a fight..todays my last day here..im just no good…theres wonderful things in this world. Its just that the world was not made for me i dont belong.
i dont belong either. ive never had a place in this world there is n o purpose for me. As they say i take up space that someone can make more useful out of. i cant do anything right it seems. Never made anyone proud, never can make anyone happpy it just kind of sucks! but why is it your last day here? i found some thats in my situation finally in my life and now i wonthave you to talk to. and im back at point a
This is no longer my home…this morning ruined what used to be my sanctuary. There are so many others on here to talk to. This is just the beginning you will make lots of friends here…i dint know what will happen to me..but trust ne keep posting and yiu will definitely make friends here..
Well im sorry about that and i hope the best for you. It always feels goof talking to someone that dont think your crazy but thanks for everything even this little talk comforted me. ill keep you in mind, best wishes for ya.
Oh 8! this is ALWAYS your home – and you ALWAYS belong – nothing was “ruined” in you sanctuary – you know full well that everyone has moments and we all forgive those moments … oh … hi Raven … beautiful name 😉
oh – and 8 has squishable cheeks 😉
dawg
haha… squishable cheeks. You don’t have to leave att. And I don’t think anyone wants you to.
Hi Raven, welcome to the site.
Guys. I’m gonna do something. Before i turn 18 im gonna slice my wrist open…i remember back at my hospital there was a girl who had cut her forearms up so that she bled out and fainted..she was the sweetest girl ever but my point is thats what im gonna do. If i survive i be put back in the hospital…maybe ill see some old friends. Today made me realize i dint belong. I will never forget how inscared sabrina or how angry i made Mr. Nobody. Oh and thanks for welcoming raven. She really needs some good friends.
@AtTheEnd: really? dont take this mornin so seriously. please dont do that to yourself..u do belong. honestly. u dont deserve pain. your an amazing person. stay please.
Ok, this has got to stop.AtTheEnd get a grip. Raven, what you need to understamd. because I have been there, is that there is more. You don’t know who AtTheEnd is. They could be anybody. If your family doesn’t help you then move on. Suicide isn’ the answer. Try something else, then decide. Change your life. It’s all in your hands. Not God’s, not anybody else’s. Yours. Change your life to make you happy.
Welcome to SP Raven… I am new here myself and i dont know if this would help or make any difference but AT PLEASE STAY. I dont know who you are, never spoke to you but i have read a lot, about the incident that happened this morning and the other comments on it. Let bygones be bygones… PLEASE STAYYYYY… You spoke your mind out and so does everyone here so no big deal…. this is Raven’s first post i guess and see how much she needs you to be here …. Think about all the people who want you here for their sake PLEASEEEE STAYYYYY….. sorry Raven to invading your post like this but SP needs people like AT…. Beleive me you are that GOOD !!!