“They/He’s too good for you.”
“You’re a lying whore”
“You’re a screwed up, deceiving *****”
“You’re a murderer”
“You deserved to get raped after everything you’ve done”
“I hope you die alone and rot in hell”
“Here, how about you use this and do everyone a favour by shooting yourself the way you lied saying that he did”
Words I hear yelled at me whenever I go out. Seems like everywhere I go, no one can get over the mistakes I’ve made and the bullshit stories they’ve heard. It all happened over a year ago and I’ve had proof showing that I was being truthful, yet some people can’t seem to accept that they are wrong. But that’s not what hurts me. What hurts me is knowing that I use the lines about (and many others that they use) on myself every day, because lets face it, I see it as the truth. I really don’t care if they shut up or not, I just wish I could stop my self loathing. Maybe then things will go back to the way they were before and I can be happy again. For now, I guess I’m stuck living this lie of “happiness”.
CPC