Just want The Old Life Back

I don’t know how this could happen. This school year was the best I ever had. This summer was horrible. First I lose my boyfriend of 3 years. All because of some girl who I thought was my friend. I really did. Then I  find this new guy who made me happy. HE told me he loved me then took it back. That night was the first night I cut myself. I had made a new friend a few towns away in February. He came to a school ceremony at school. A rumor got started that I slept with him. I didn’t though. My mom found out now, hell is breaking lose. The only comfort I find is cutting. I know I should stop. I’ve tried the butterfly project I just can’t. It releases the pain….I just want my old life back. The one where I was happy and not knownas the school slut.