Dear Friend ,
Well , I’ve just created this and I don’t know if I’m doing this right. I’m thinking of using this as way to talk. Whoever reads this , I consider a friend. My name is Gabrielle , some call me Gaby. I’m 14 and I’ve recently found this and decided to make an account to use this as my escape so I want to thank The Suicide Project for this , I guess. I’ve began getting depressed at age 12 and it’s been 2 years. I self harm as well. I’ve had 20 days or more without cutting which I’m quite proud of so a pat on the back for myself ! I’ve thought about running away once because of my brother. My brother is sort of the whole reason behind this. He calls me names and recently called me fat and I just can’t get it out of my head. My mom never does anything so I just listen to music to drown out the world. My motive for staying alive is my little sister and baby cousin. I just don’t want to hear my little sister asking ” where did Gaby go ? ” and neither do I want those words to come out my baby cousin when he gets older. My aunt is one person who helps as well, she listens when no one else does , she’s another motive. I’ll keep writing for whoever decides to read this crap. Goodbye for now ~
Love always ,
Gaby xoxo
5 comments
Talk to a teacher. About How you feelin. & about cutting. & Talk to a DR too.
Congratulations on the 20 day record!
my longest was 2 months..
I want you to know i will keep reading and you keep happy 🙂
This is a good place to vent. Its difficult being a teen just remember that we all go through it mean family and all.
Its good that people think about the others around us and what a suicide would do to them. Just those thoughts along can keep us alive, maybe till a miricle happens and our lives change. Your still very young, there is alot more in life ahead if we stay here.
Thank you. It means a lot that you’re reading.
Gaby I used to be like you, but over time, I learned to develope another part of me that could take it, and give it back…but never bully.It happened in my 20’s when a person was ridiculing and making fun of me. I actually wanted to die; until I studied their mirth and total enjoyment over my suffering. I realized that if they could enjoy my suffering; they sure could experience what they were dishing out to me.I went from shy to having a keen discernment, and sharp tongue that identified truths about the person. Dish it out, and that verbal dish may come back with a dart of truth.Is your brother a perfect being…find a imperfection on him,and identify it for him…then ask him how it feels. NEVER take the position of a victim,if possible..and never bully in return.Give him the principle that we don’t ridicule others because they have feelings..which is why dear brother I don’t ridicule your zit, or whatever his imperfection is.Consider nutrition, weight lifting and martial arts…gives a girl self esteem and strength, and trims the body.Gaby as one who used to be shy, I can assure you ridiculing and criticism is a part of life. So you must learn to develope resiliency..as we say…learn to roll with the punches.Gaby you’re fat…brother you’re a moron, because only unintelligent people ridicule others. Get it gaby…roll with the punch..and if you can use humor …even better. Many a stand up comic started out by fending off the attacks of verbal bullies using humor .