I will be gone by the end of September. The only thing I an unhappy about missing is a TV show. Oh, yeah I definitely have a lot to live for. A tv show.
It just goes to show what a loser I am.
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;-; dont go..
U.K then it’s jeremy kyle show.
Don’t leave because right now all I have to live for is the people on this site and that definately includes u.
Thanks AtTheEnd, but I’m just so tired of life and it’s pains. I can’t do this anymore.
Donnie, you got the area right, although I don’t live anywhere near UK. It’s Doctor Who.
@reastrictingheart thanks. That’s really kind of you to say. But I really don’t contribute much here, I’m just a random teenager lurking in the background. And I’ll still be here for about a month.
Your username is very familiar D:
DO I know you? Have we met before? :L
And you should watch…the walking dead and i know it hurts but…BLAH BLAH something memorable that makes you want to stay…please stay :/
I really hope u change ur mind in the next month. i really do understand what u mean when u say your only a random teenager i’m one too but that doesn’t mean i agree. u should kno that u matter and i hope u find that u have other things to live for Please don’t give up because a Tv SHow has nothing on what u should try to live for. Life is meant to have pains i kno. I named myself RestictedHeart because thats what it feals like if feels like the pain is consuming me and the walls i’ve built around my heart are closing in but they won’t tighten enough to end it. don’t hide BehindtheSmile I know for a fact it only makes the pain worse.
September is so beautiful so is October. Fall is my favorite season. You should least wait til the leaves change.
@AtTheEnd Haha yees. : ) I will watch that. And thanks. It’s nice to know someone cares. I’ll try to stay.
@restrictingheart Thank you so much. Your concern really does help. It’s not because of a tv show, it’s so many things. But I’ll try. I like your name by the way, and I’m glad someone got the meaning behind mine.
@butterflyfly thanks. That is a good reason to stay.
@Behindthesmile
So we have met before? how do I know you? :L
I forgot…sowwie…and yes watch it! o:<
I would love to talk to u if u ever need to on here or not. Email me at Arabiangyrl28@gmail.com. trust me i’ll answer i have no other important things to do anytime soon :/
Yeah and I second what Butterflyfly said, BehindtheSmile. Autumn is a beautiful time, my favourite too.
You’re not ‘random’, you could never be that. You matter BehindtheSmile. Please stick around and come here if you need to vent anytime.
Zx
@AtTheEnd Not in person. We’ve emailed. I’m the short nerd girl.
@louise50 Thank you for your kind words. Small things like that make everything so much better
I can’t promise anything. This decision took a long time to make and the cons of life outweigh the cons of living. I have everything planned and I have thought this over thoroughly.
Who knows, maybe I will feel better in a month. But I gave myself a month so I can tie up loose ends, not change my mind.
^the cons of life outweigh the cons of dying
Sorry
Ps, btw I think ‘nerd’ girls’ are very cool. And one advantage is there are a lot of nerd guys out there to hang with and share common interests. That’s if you like guys of course. Well I don’t want to presume.
My definition of ‘nerd’? Knowing a lot about certain chosen subjects. You’re knowledgeable and interested in stuff BehindtheSmile. That’s gotta count for something.
And I wonder where you are now, given that you like Doctor Who but don’t live anywhere near the UK.
If a TV show is all you have to live for (I don’t believe that btw) then at least you still have something to live for, right?
Zx
I laughed when I read this; only because I feel the exact same way. A tv show. Yeah. Me too. I’m glad you said you’ll try to stay. That’s a step. And you’re not just a random teenager lurking in the background. At all. I’ve ‘seen you around’ a lot on this site and I in fact, enjoy having you here. You’re part of the family. 😉
Do your hardest to stay strong, dear.
You don’t sound like a loser at all. I wouldn’t be able to leave after football season starts, especially if my team has a 5-0 start.
Shark Week on the Discovery channel also keeps me around, as well as reruns of Cops.
oh a nerd cool, Doctor Who I never have watched that show even though it seems to have been around forever. Whats wrong with living for a tv show lol I have been waiting 20 years to see how the Wheel of Time book series turns out! I read a couple of your other posts to see if you listed any of the cons of life didn’t look like you said much though. Umm oh and we need some more quotes now!
@BehindTheSmile: If it makes you feel any better, there’s a niche of (very nice) dudes that really dig short nerdy girls. They tend to be nerdy too. Google ‘dating a nerd’ and have a read. 🙂
lucy4- Cops, that’s ma show! Had to say it.
@Behindthesmile
OMFG CUTEY LITTLE NERD GIRL :3
You never emailed me back…i was confused :L
Hi…how are you? oh wait..crummy..hurm stayyyy
@Louis50
Shes like my older brother…he’s not from the uk…we’re in the west coast and he’s in love with doctor who…went crazy watching it on netflix :L
oh and speaking of tv yay I was just on my favorite tv torrent site and looks like the new season of Grimm started tonight 😀
Thank you so much everyone. I had no idea I would get this response. I’m grateful to all of you. It really helps. Thanks for all the encouragement, I especially enjoyed the comments about being a nerd.
@Louise50 I live in the US, in Illinois.
@WhatAmIDoingHere Thanks for reminding me. More quotes will come. And I’ve never watched Grimm, but it looks interesting.
Email me if you want i kinda miss ya :s
God bless and save the BBC (makers of Doctor Who for the uninitiated). Zx
Grimm was one of my favorite new shows from last year. Its kind of quirky but I really dig that kind of paranormal urban/contemporary fantasy type stuff. I guess I just find the real world boring and wish there was some actual magic and other cool stuff in it.
hmm I don’t think we get a lot of BBC over here, umm they did make a Robin Hood series that I liked and Merlin is good, and I havent watched it yet but I heard the new sherlock series on there is supposed to be great
Yeah at least you have a TV show.
I have NO reason to live. None. I did have my marijuana plant but its taking too long and the pain and frustration that comes with life is too much. I feel like I am walking through mud, or quicksand for that matter. I just cant seem to get ahead.