fellings that come out after a long time

as i was wrighting a song today all things that i had pushed into a safe and locked it away somewhere to never be opened again….but as soon as i finished they all came flooding back and there was no way to shut then in that safe again…today was the first time i cut in almost 2 months… lately it seams that ive been closer to edge then ever before..its just like that nightmare i have every year on the first day of school… i just ran out of the woods everyones gone whoever was after us got them all im the last one left, i think im ok im in the clear ive lost them, thats when i hear the rumbaling of a car and then it disappeares as quikly as it appered, i walke closer to the edge thinking if i can just clime down i could hide in the cave below and just as i get a few steppes away i hear one of them breaking threw the thick forests edge, i turn back and  there he was, the persone who just disappered on me one day without a word, he had the scariest look in his eyes then he laughed meseningly and said, “its time to go off the edge” with each step he took towards me i took one back and it always ends mid fall off the cliff…. i feel so alone and abondened when i wake up but lately i dont need the dreem to make me feel that way…every where i turn everywhere i look…almost everyone i talk to or see makes me want to just jump off the edge insted of waiting to be pushed off… i know many of you wont stop to read this but it was a good way to get this out even if it didnt work to get all this stuff to go away…and thank you for reading