Well, I guess I’m not ban-worthy. sigh. I probably should stick around, anyway. Last night was just really bad. I spent hours writing about my life but when I posted it, I got zero responses, despite other people posting and commenting after my post. It just really made me feel stupid for thinking anyone would care about my middle-class white ass.
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Sometimes we just don’t know what to say…I’m sure everyone cares for each other here it’s just hard to put things to words sometimes, and we don’t want to say the wrong things either.
I suppose. But it’s kinda sucky to know that people who feel the same things I do can’t relate to me.
I’m pretty sure everyone here can relate to each other in some way…that’s why we’re all here, besides like…donnie I guess but yeah.
@Need2Vent: 🙂 Glad you’ve decided to hang here a bit longer.
@imperfectluck: you’re a fast learner. You’ll learn to tune out of Donnie soon enough. I’m still yet to work him out, so I’ve decided just live and let live. I realise this sounds bizarre coming from someone here of all places, but there you go.
Sometimes people are just afraid of what will happen. No one wants to be let down in another aspect of their life. some of us can be on here for hours a day reading people’s stories and relating them to our own hoping to get responses ourselves but mayb even if we get a response it isn’t what we were hoping for or expecting. some of us are afraid of the unknown because hell even what we do know scares the shit out of us. don’t take anything personal of get disheartened. someone cares and can relate to your story more than u could even understand they just might not b there yet. 🙂
-sincerely a person who cares and can relate
So… why did I have to approve only one of the comments here? Word Press is confusing.
So… I’ve never been to the hospital for my bipolar, but there are times when I wonder if I should. But then I stop to think… that will just add to my medical debt that is one of the major problems in my life. How would that help anything? Then I start feeling hopeless again.
What is it really like in there, anyway? Can I bring my stuffed animals? I would worry about someone even less stable than me hurting them, though. It sounds stupid, but I’ve had these critters since I was born and I can’t sleep without them. I just think the hospital would be more bad than good. But then I think that I really just want to get away from my regular life and any change might be good.
I don’t think I saw your other post NeedtoVent.
You’re bipolar? Snap…
Hospital sucks ass but sometimes it’s where we need to be. Your stuffed animals might get stolen, but are unlikely to be ‘hurt’ I should think.
I’m gonna go read your other post now if it’s still there.
Zx
It’s gone, but thanks for the interest, louise. Stolen animals is just as bad. I have it in my will to be buried with them.
need2vent
trust me people care here i probably have expierenced some of the most sincere and thoughtful human responses good or bad people here will listen…trust me at the most unexpected time someone will reach your story and beautiful people like @restrictingheart and @louise50 just to name a couple will reach out to you and give you the kind words that every human at some point needs to hear…
lots of love