So, first off I’ll admit I’ve thought about committing suicide and I can’t even begin to imagine how it feels when it’s your only option. My heart sincerely goes out to all of you in this situation, this is my little story from last year. I hope it helps anyone who feels as though no one cares.
I met her through an online friend. She lived in Western Australia, I knew she was troubled but she eventually let me in, she was my first lesbian crush and she gave me the confidence to come out to friends and family. We would text everyday and our feelings only grew. She would talk about coming over to Tassie to see me. Then her friend attempted suicide, it really hit her hard and she started to become distant to me. As time went on her friend was getting better but she was getting worse, eventually she told me to give her space and she would text me when she felt better.
I guess she never felt better cos I never heard from her again. I had no idea what had happened, all my efforts to contact her were unfruitful, and I was left in the dark, terrified of what might have happened. It wasn’t until 6 months later on my Auntie’s birthday her name came up on my phone, I knew it was bad cos she would never call without texting. it was her friend that had attempted suicide. Turns out she had “accidentally” overdosed on drugs and alcohol. Doctors said it was a cry for help that went too far. From across a nation my heart shattered, my world flipped upside-down. Time hasn’t made this easier, I still think about her all the time and miss her like crazy. Her number is still in my phone, all the messages we sent are still in my inbox.
For all of you guys who think that no one cares, you’re wrong. People care more than you think. I wish you could all see the tears streaming down my face for the girl on the other side of the country, I knew for about 8 months and never actually met.
I wish you all the very best and hope you keep safe.