like it fucking matters.

Can’t stand it anymore. I’m so socially excluded no work no study no activities no friends no nothing. I sit here all day everyday get excited my mental health people are gonna help me and they cancel..week after week. Spend all day trying to find something i can do but this feeling is pretty debilitating. Cant tell them they’ll shove me back in hospital i still have flashbacks from that place. Nothing feels normal anymore maybe i’m already dead i’m something and i dont think it’s ever going until i do. fuck this.