my never changing past

I just can’t seem to let the past go, even though I know I should.

I hate my father for things he has done years ago, even though now in the present he tries to get close to me. I just push him away, or give him one-word answers. It makes me feel like a horrible person because here I am with a father that loves me and yet I hate him.

I hate my ex-best friend for the mean things he has said to me, even after he apologized 28492741 times and even SAVED MY LIFE.

I still think about rude comments that random people have said to me, all the time.

I hold a grudge on everyone, even some of my closest friends.

And the one thing I am depressed about the most, I will never be able to change.

I want to let go of my past, but I can’t.

Is something wrong with me? Yes.