not long to live..

More shit hit tha fan and im being pushed to suicide, but how, how do i kill myself, itz not easy but i keep trying and will continue to do so, If you go through so much b.s and cant find a way to be happy, we have our choice to end our lives whenever we reach our points, ive tryed three times last month, im not scared of death, i just cant wait to go… i am still looking for new ways so i cant fuck up my own suicide again… damn..i know i have less then 4 months to live and i will try to seek happyness in these months, we only live once so i will try to make the best of it, ive lived a very very good life, had every dream come true before, was so happy in my past now that shit has hit rock btm, this is the only way is to end my life, i really wish i succeded last time, but i know its coming and i look forward to death, part of me still wants to live, but most of me says, life aint worth this everyday bullshit..so happy departure