I’m going to kill myself. I’m going to take 34 Prazosin pills that are 25 mg each. So that equals about 850 mg and 10 shots of rum… i hope that’ll do it… I’ll just PTFO then never wake up :/ and i will add a few hydroxyzine
I just can’t do this anymore, I’ve been battling for years been raped all my life just got raped this morning did hella meth and i just dont know what to do anymore
bother mom distant family members and random people on the street. Death seems like the only way out. my ex makes fun of me he says that i enjoy being raped and my PTSD is just a joke. check it:
Anthony Joshua Shultz:
Go be with jay. Or rya or a good damn pimp
Your freaking out. You say you got rapped. I don’t believe you at all
Fuck you
Go fuck a dog our something.
Bye
Fuck your damndog
I’m glad she is gone
I’m glad all this bad shit is happing
Eat more food. Go puke
Go die
Kill yourself
Go sell your self
I hope you get kidnapped and rapped
Fuck off
Go hoe else where. My days have bein awesome cause we don’t talk. Your busy bring a prostitute. So just stop now.
Don’t worry about it. Go be a whore somewhere else. Jay or some random guys will do for you. Bye.
Wtf you want hoe
Just delete me.
Forget me
yes im looking at your page fatty
fuck you go crawl in a hole and die bye
hahahaha just go fuck your self really hard. use a broom stick and jump on it….
what do i have to do for you to leave me alone for good…….????????????
just everything.
can you just make things easier and like not bother or anything anymore. just go and live life like you want too.
nope. bye. duces. have fun bein around guys you wanna fuck. i hope they all fuck your ass.
like ive never been any kind of whore or anything of the sorts not even a slut
Plz plz plz rethink about this. There is true happiness out there for you. I promise… you just gotta search for it. Search for it with everything within you. I’m here for u… I care! Email me sberkley79@gmail.com
I feel your pain. Maybe not literally, but I’m trying to imagine how you must feel. You need you to get rid of whoever is babbling this bullshit to you. I know it hurts, but you know that none of it is true. And if you’re constantly getting raped, please seek help. Go to someone, go to the police. They can help you get away from these monsters.
they always find me, im always a target. i dnt dress slutty either, im just a chubby 18 year old girl who gets bullied all the time. all i want is to end everything it’s the only way to esacpe
This guy sounds like a complete moron. It looks like you have tried to contact him and these are his replys? He’s obviously trying to hurt you at the core..I’d stop talking to him completley.
I can’t imagine the pain you are going through with the rapes..is there anyway to get yourself out of this environment?
As for the meth I can relate I was addicted for over a year..did it everyday almost except when I crashed to sleep. I’ve been clean now over 5 years. You can overcome addiction, trust me I did.
I’m not sure if you still there, I can’t give you advised to take your life, even if perhaps you deserve that, actually I would know…. otherwise I would not be here.
But I want to tell you something else… I read your blog, “waiting for the train”I liked it remind me of something I wrote and “I simply don’t understand” really connected with me, yet i know that to be true its hard to face certain things so I don’t understand too. If you survive your attempt and feel any hope for something in life the way you was inspired to write what you wrote on that blog then I hope you build the strength to get yourself out of your situation, I mean simply disappear from it.
thank u kind person u have instilled some faith in the human race for me. i just took what i said i would nd am feeling numb all over. i hope u and i can connect if i survive. thank u for ur kindness
and if I survive as well))) I’m unsure of what tomorrow brings, or what some moments from now bring for you. you do not know me but at this moment if you pass over I will wish you well. The more you know about life the harder it is to have faith in human race, I understand that. People will fail you, me, and each other. If we overcome we could only grow and be stronger to not let their failures effect us so strongly.
I feel lost in my thoughts because of your writing. – wishing you ease.
i read the one ‘untitled’ i was just listening to eminem so i read it fast in a 16 bar, it rhymes funnily enough, even though their sad stories (and sadly true) You write them nicely, you should write more
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Please rethink what you’re about to do. There’s not much I can say, but I hope you chose wisely and find what you’re looking for.
I just can’t do this anymore, I’ve been battling for years been raped all my life just got raped this morning did hella meth and i just dont know what to do anymore
Who’s been doing this to you all your life?
bother mom distant family members and random people on the street. Death seems like the only way out. my ex makes fun of me he says that i enjoy being raped and my PTSD is just a joke. check it:
Anthony Joshua Shultz:
Go be with jay. Or rya or a good damn pimp
Your freaking out. You say you got rapped. I don’t believe you at all
Fuck you
Go fuck a dog our something.
Bye
Fuck your damndog
I’m glad she is gone
I’m glad all this bad shit is happing
Eat more food. Go puke
Go die
Kill yourself
Go sell your self
I hope you get kidnapped and rapped
Fuck off
Go hoe else where. My days have bein awesome cause we don’t talk. Your busy bring a prostitute. So just stop now.
Don’t worry about it. Go be a whore somewhere else. Jay or some random guys will do for you. Bye.
Wtf you want hoe
Just delete me.
Forget me
yes im looking at your page fatty
fuck you go crawl in a hole and die bye
hahahaha just go fuck your self really hard. use a broom stick and jump on it….
what do i have to do for you to leave me alone for good…….????????????
just everything.
can you just make things easier and like not bother or anything anymore. just go and live life like you want too.
nope. bye. duces. have fun bein around guys you wanna fuck. i hope they all fuck your ass.
like ive never been any kind of whore or anything of the sorts not even a slut
Plz plz plz rethink about this. There is true happiness out there for you. I promise… you just gotta search for it. Search for it with everything within you. I’m here for u… I care! Email me sberkley79@gmail.com
I feel your pain. Maybe not literally, but I’m trying to imagine how you must feel. You need you to get rid of whoever is babbling this bullshit to you. I know it hurts, but you know that none of it is true. And if you’re constantly getting raped, please seek help. Go to someone, go to the police. They can help you get away from these monsters.
they always find me, im always a target. i dnt dress slutty either, im just a chubby 18 year old girl who gets bullied all the time. all i want is to end everything it’s the only way to esacpe
This guy sounds like a complete moron. It looks like you have tried to contact him and these are his replys? He’s obviously trying to hurt you at the core..I’d stop talking to him completley.
I can’t imagine the pain you are going through with the rapes..is there anyway to get yourself out of this environment?
As for the meth I can relate I was addicted for over a year..did it everyday almost except when I crashed to sleep. I’ve been clean now over 5 years. You can overcome addiction, trust me I did.
i’m not addicted to meth I only smoked last night and this morning, and already had my come down.
ya those are his replies.
I’m in foster care now but just this morning I got raped again.
Dear bella,
I’m not sure if you still there, I can’t give you advised to take your life, even if perhaps you deserve that, actually I would know…. otherwise I would not be here.
But I want to tell you something else… I read your blog, “waiting for the train”I liked it remind me of something I wrote and “I simply don’t understand” really connected with me, yet i know that to be true its hard to face certain things so I don’t understand too. If you survive your attempt and feel any hope for something in life the way you was inspired to write what you wrote on that blog then I hope you build the strength to get yourself out of your situation, I mean simply disappear from it.
thank u kind person u have instilled some faith in the human race for me. i just took what i said i would nd am feeling numb all over. i hope u and i can connect if i survive. thank u for ur kindness
can you put a link to ‘waiting for the train’
just go to my blog its the blogspot link
you’re pretty, its a shame the worlds like this
and if I survive as well))) I’m unsure of what tomorrow brings, or what some moments from now bring for you. you do not know me but at this moment if you pass over I will wish you well. The more you know about life the harder it is to have faith in human race, I understand that. People will fail you, me, and each other. If we overcome we could only grow and be stronger to not let their failures effect us so strongly.
I feel lost in my thoughts because of your writing. – wishing you ease.
i read the one ‘untitled’ i was just listening to eminem so i read it fast in a 16 bar, it rhymes funnily enough, even though their sad stories (and sadly true) You write them nicely, you should write more