This is the end

I’m tired of hiding behind a fake smile. I’m tired of having all the panic attacks. I’m tired of dreaming of you every single night. I’m tired of waking up each day, hating myself for losing you. I’m tired of this 5 month long depression. I’m tired of living this unhappy life. I think tonight will be the night. Just remember, not a second has gone by that I haven’t loved you. I’m sorry about being that egotistical jerk I was in the past. I’ve changed, but it’s just way too late. I just can’t do this anymore, I’m surprised I’ve lasted this long. This is just way too hard to take. You’re the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last when I fall asleep. You are all I dream about, then I wake up the next day and the pain and misery starts all over again. I can’t do it anymore. This is it, I just know it. Goodbye Kate, please remember that I have always loved you no matter what, and there isn’t a second that goes by when you aren’t on my mind. Please enjoy your life, the year and a half we spent together were without a doubt, the best of mine. Goodbye to all.