BEEN READING YOU ALL. WE R ALL THE SAME. 4 years ago my wife left me after 13 years. I am still so fucking devastated. i spent the first 2 years taking the pistol in and out of my mouth, untill i loaned it to a homeboy for some dope (been on methadone and heroin for 20 yrs) and never saw it again. my wife and i had cars, bikes, huge house cash but most of all i had her. she was my life. ive been shot , stabbed numerouse times, addicted, imprisoned, and no pain can ever compare to loosing my soal mate. after 4 years it hasnt gotten any easier, only worse. im a truly broken man sleeping on the floor of my moms small apartment. my dog is my only love. but now its not enough, i have seen all i care to see………..