And all the stories you can say, All the ways that you deceive, Will never stop me getting through, I will fight my way to you….

So this week has been pure shit. I mean, Suicidal thinking shit. Obviously.

First, I just haven’t been my self this week. I’ve been a blend of the the bad Nat’s that we know and love :3 Secondly, Thursday was 27/9/12 (The ‘day’ that the voices have been talking about for months) Nothing bad happened on that day because I didn’t go into school… Friday however was by far the worst day of the week.

So Friday- Woke up feeling okay, did all my routines. Did break down a bit third lesson but I brought myself back from it. Cue fourth lesson. I got a facebook message on my phone and my teacher was on the other side of the art classroom (it’s pretty big) So I check it. Our of nowhere she is in front of me and confiscates my phone. Obviously that fucked me up a bit, But it was my own fault so I tried not to let it get to me. After lunch I have art again, So I go back up the steps to the art room and she gives me this sickly sweet smile. Then tells me that my phone has been handed into reception and I have an afterschool detention with the head of year groups.

Then I got pissed off. As my best friend was staying round that night and I knew it would put me in a bad mood. Never the less, I do the detention with the false hope of getting my phone back at the end. But noo.. They’re lost it. So I have to wait until afterschool tomorrow before I can attempt to get it back.

A whole weekend without my phone has been pretty horrible.. Considering i’m a teenager and use it a lot.

Also, This guy. Who is insanely cute.. (also the guy who messaged me on FB, Causing me to lose my phone -_-) well, I don’t know. We started to get really close and now.. We’re getting distant again :/ It’s making me think of Luis and what he did.

Maybe girls like me (crazy, creepy, Only moderately good looking when I actually attempt to be and fucking annoying) Aren’t meant to be happy. Well obviously.

I probably could have dealt with everything if I had started the week off in a better mood. But that just doesn’t compute with being Nat.

Why did you people stop me from doing it on Thursday? I might be in a better place now.. Or at least hospital. Which is still better.