Further to my recent post, My Bones, for what its worth, I would like to tell you all, Ive done it. Ive just said no to meeting the ex and her daughter as ” Just friends”. She wanted to meet in our usual spot, the place where I fell in love with her. I just couldnt do it. I love her way to much to be just friends, she has someone else now, and thats whats killing me. Ive seen her a couple of times since the split, and it crushes me inside.
This is a HUGE step for me, as I love her with all my being, and I always will till my dying breath. But i gotta try to be strong, and not give in to her.
I cried on my doctor earlier, and im crying now, and im very very low now.
From this moment on, is gonna be the biggest test of my life.
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Bravo!!! I have co-dependency issues at times and I’m usually not that strong when it comes to the stance you’ve taken. Long ago, I quit smoking after years of doing it. I simply refused to physically put the cigarette in my mouth and hoped that in time, it would become easier. It worked out great. That was nine years ago. I hope your venture goes just as well. Good luck and if it makes a difference, I’m pulling for you.
Thanks for your support. Her leaving me, was the hardest thing Ive experienced. The pain, and the loneliness these last few weeks have crushed my soul. I cant get her back, because she has moved on. Ive tried everything else, so I guess cold turkey is my only option.
I’m really proud of you Wayne, my ex blocked me on his cell, so it was easier for me to keep my distance from him. It shows a lot of character that you said no to her. It’s gonna be hard, but you have us on this community to talk to, we’ll cheer you on.
Cry it out that helps a lot .. also sleeping it off helped me a bit.
Hi Ellie, how are you today?. I think it was talking to you yesterday thats helped me on. It made me realize that Im not alone in all this, and there really is people out there just like me, suffering how I am. Thank you for your support :). Im very upset at the moment.
I know Wayne, I know… 🙁 I’m so sorry for this pain. I’m glad talking to me made you feel better, talking to you made me feel A LOT better. It hurts like hell to let someone you love go .. but I think being around her would hurt a lot more, since she is with someone else.
I still don’t understand what she was thinking, having broken up with you and asking you to meet her as friends. She is obviously not sensitive to your feelings, my ex is the same way btw. Only I think he is even colder. After we broke up he started talking to in such a reserved way, almost as though I was his secretary. It’s like dude you never loved did you?
I don’t understand why people do this, playing with peoples feelings like that. I just want to smack all this fake people with a blown up bat… although a wooden bat would do them more good.. lol
I HATE fakeness, and I hate people who don’t take relationships seriously. Oh well it’s their loss. This is the part where I usually start cussing off, but I’ll spare you the drama 🙂
You cuss all you want Ellie. It has been hard, and at this moment in time, Im doubting what Ive done. I keep checking my phone through the tears, to see if she has text me.
I think your ex and mine would be well suited. I like the wooden bat idea, nothing like a Babe Ruth Slugger to sort them all out. Im gonna be strong as possible, and hope I make it through this. Im sorry your ex treat you like that, sounds like he didnt understand love. His loss though.
Im pleased talking to me helped pick you up a little btw. 🙂
I kept looking at the cell all the time too … and checking my email … but just blocked my cell.
thanks a lot Dave… i love you too… 🙁
You did the right thing, you let her go. The way you can tell if a person loves you is if they come back after you let them go.
Don’t beat yourself up .. you are not the bad person in this situation.
Btw if it’s not too much to ask, can I have your email? I want to keep in touch.
I know Ellie, I guess time will tell. If she does find her way back to me, then she’ll know it was meant to be, as I do.
Dave sounds like a dick. Sorry, but he does. I know you still love him, as I do Julie, but I guess we both gotta look to the future.
Of course you can. Ill send you a message now. 🙂
Thanks 🙂 btw where are the messages located? I’m new to this site.
Ive just sent a message to your email. I dont think this site has a messaging service.
Ive just had the email returned, saying no account detected.
Oh man I’m sorry, that’s weird that email is working, maybe you mistyped it .. my last name is tricky lol. That’s my real name btw, I use nick while on here. 🙂
Thank you so much for your email.
Guess I should stop calling you ellie 🙂
Let it all out!!! Proud of you, very proud of you for what you’ve done. Baby steps, just remember that. Don’t take a leap if you don’t want to. 😀