I’m actually feeling really well today. I mean sure some douchebags upset me with a comment they made about suicidal people (basically that anyone who commits suicide doesn’t deserve to be loved after they’re gone), but too many good things have happened today for it to ruin my day. So today was National Suicide awareness day and I honestly thought the only people who would care and do something about it were my friends and I (and maybe one or two others), but when I got to school, the first thing I saw was a bunch of popular girls and guys with the word love on their wrist and wearing yellow (the things required of the day if you were going to participate). One of them came up to me and asked if I was doing it for the same reason, and I said yes. She then hugged me and was tearing up saying thank-you because her dad committed suicide when she was nine and it meant so much to her to see other people care. I told her how my ex killed himself and other friends and my brother had tried in the past but lived. We then sat there for an hour talking and just generally getting along. It just felt so weird because here is a girl who I knew for nearly 5 years now and I just always assumed she was happy, and she had done the same to me seeing as we had never heard otherwise about each other (never talked before), and yet I felt like for that hour that she understood me more than at least 90% of the people I have met in my life. It’s just amazing that something like that could bring two people who couldn’t be less alike together. I mean don’t get me wrong, it’s really sad that it has happened to the both of us, but I can’t stop thinking about what would have happened if we didn’t see each other today. I mean I know I probably would have still felt trapped and alone, and she probably would have felt the same. It’s just a really strange feeling. That along with some other great things that happened (just day to day things like a class was cancelled, my boyfriends and I got to hang out and stuff like that) has just made me feel so much better than I’ve been in a while. I hope it lasts 🙂
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