out of my mind

There are so many things that i want to do but i don’t want to do them at the same time. What do i really want anymore? It drives me crazy to be constantly at war with myself,everyday I wake up and wish i hadn’t. Then later on in the day i fight my suicidal thoghts because imafraid of dying and its a neverending cycle. I can’t escape it and it makes me feel torn apart and like i’m going to lose my head.