I cheated on my last boyfriend with the same guy twice.
Ive had sex with three guys who i were not dating.
I’ve had sex with 10 guys
I have a tattoo
Ive tried killing myself several times
Ive been wanted to die for the past three years
Im scared of the dark
I feel like I’m never gonna make in this world without a man
I want a secret chick lover
I love photography but think i suck at it
I wish i could be a stonner like my brother bc then life would be simple
I pushed a lot of people away
I did a lot of people wrong
At one point i wanted to kill my brother think i still do
My first partner raped me
My brother abused me for a long time, still does
The first time i ever did anything sexual i was 12 and believe its my fault the guy is in prison
I pick my nose on occasion
I wanna be a red he’d bc i believe they’re hot and that ill get a sexy not to short irish guy
I wanted a baby with my last ex because i was stupid and believed we would be okay
I depend to much on males
I have daddy issues
I believe my father would have raped me if i lived with him any longer
I want a real man in my life, but i tell everyone i don’t want a man
I know I’m desperate for love
Thats why i wanted a baby
When i thought i was pregnant i was happy, even though the guy was an asshole
I date older guys because i believe they will save me from my hell hole life and take care of me
Im telling the world this because i have no to tell
Ive lied to my mother more then I’ve lied to anyone
My dream is to be a ballerina
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Sounds like some serious self esteem issues, I may just be a random person but I think your worth too much to let men take advantage of you, by letting them treat you that way your losing your self worth to yourself, first step to get better would be learning how to respect yourself. I’m a girl I pick my nose, life goes on its just a nose, I’m afraid of the dark, I have a few tattoos doesn’t mean I’m wrong does it? Stop with men completely until you feel that your emotionally ready to handle something real with a man not just sex, it is NOT your fault you got raped, that’s the problem now a days people make young women feel like it is but it’s not in no way shape or form. Be strong don’t give up I believe there’s a beautiful soon to be ballerina or photographer in there somewhere.