I’m tired of people in my life telling me “suicide is quitting.” No, lying down and accepting the pain is quitting. Suicide is taking action. It’s not necessarily the right action, but it’s an action nonetheless.
People who say suicide is quitting are making the assumption that the goal in life is to live. That’s not my goal. My goal is to end this suffering. I haven’t had any luck so far, but I have one last trick up my sleeve.
I refuse to lie down and take this. I will accomplish my goal if it kills me. Why suicide? Because I refuse to quit.
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It just depends on what your goals are, for many, if not most people it is quitting, because they don’t want it to happen they just can’t bare the pain. In the end it’s your decision what goals you strive for in life. I think everyone has the right to decide weather they live or die.
Also, this made me laugh “i will accomplish my goal if it kills me”
Haha yeah that sentence is pretty ironic… You’re right, I think most people’s goal is to live a full life. If that’s the case then suicide is quitting. But me, I just want to find peace.
Sometimes I think of life like it’s a war and we’re all drafted to fight for our country. If you believe in your country, then fight. But if you disagree with the war, then shouldn’t you desert? Run away and take your chances with what comes next?
It’s funny, people say the same thing about deserters as they say about people who kill themselves: “They’re cowards.” In some cases, maybe. But I think deserters & people who kill themselves have a lotta balls. More than I do at the moment, but I’m getting there.
I agree, the only problem is that when someone deserts they leave their comrades behind, which is undesirable regardless of weather or not they were drafted. Not to make you feel guilty or anything. I look at the world as a utilitarian i don’t think the goal should be to maximize life and minimize death, rather i think it should be to maximize happiness and minimize suffering.
Touché good point. Yes, I do feel bad that I would be leaving comrades behind… And I’m not just talking about friends & family, but everyone & everything out there that deserves a better world.
And when you get right down to it, that’s one of the biggest reasons why I’m still here (that and I don’t have a gun handy). I still feel connected to this lousy world… all the miserable souls who are “drafted” into this war just like me. Sometimes I feel like we can somehow fix this mess.
But then on days like today, all it takes is one royal asshole to remind me the world ain’t fixable. All hands abandon ship.