The Strugglesof Cerebral Palsy

Hey i’m 21 and im really struggling with depressiion on a llot of aspects of life. I was born with cerebral palsy, i always struggled with fitting inin society, i was never good at socialising and meeting new people.i have very little friends and i lost my bestfriend to a accident on a highway last year
It bugs me that i have yetto go on a date,i tried going to bars, clubs but i didn’t feel like i fit in. I haveattempted fnding dates on dating websites but ihavenot had any success. it’skilling mree inside,i fel so loanly anddeppressed and i know thereality is most girls are going to over look me and see the wheelchair and not see me for me. I graduated high school 3 years ago and haventbeen able to find a job at all and i have been trying hard but nothing works out. what woul be the easiest method of suicide for a disabled person im at the point iwant to end it all asi am living for nothing