I’m at that point where nothing matters. Where I don’t hear what people are telling me. I fucked up my friendship with my ex by not telling him something I want to. Every time I almost told him my chest felt like it was getting tighter it got harder to breath and the room started to spin. He knows I want to ask/tell him something and that I’m losing sleep over it but because I won’t tell him he is pissed off at me. I even told him what happened every time I almost told/asked him. My other ex who is one of my beat friends I can tell everything and he will help me through it. Well he is on a cruise and my other friend got er phone taken away and they are the ones who talk me through things. If he wasn’t on a cruise he could have calmed me down AND gotten me to tell Jacob (my ex that is pissed) what I wanted to. Skye (my best friend with her phone taken away) could have too. so now I am sitting here with noone to talk to. Noone to make me stop. Noone at all