Act no more</3

I try and try, but whatever I do I screw up. It’s always my fault. I’m tired of trying to act like myself, I know I’m falling into a hole an I’m so scared. Im talking less and less buy know one is noticing. You know why be asue none cares I’m just taking up space! Im not even trying anymore to put up a act.
I feel shitty ad ugly every single day! I’m not happy in this life anymore.