Ok, so i don’t like eating. AT ALL. I haven’t eaten in about four days, but even though my stomach feels empty i keep telling myself i am full, like when you eat too much your stomach feels stuffed. I want to be able to eat but i cant bring myself to do so because it just makes me feel disgusted with myself. My friends are beginning to think i am anorexic, and other people as well. but they are not understanding that i am simply not hungry, or rather that i just do not feel like i have the need to do so. I am not anorexic, but this has been going on since i was 12 and that was when i was overweight- i was 189 pounds and now i am 95. i am not the ugly kind of skinny, it is just that i am a smaller build so it looks fine with me, anyways i eat an apple and some baked chips on friday or something and i can last until wednesday- and that is when i start getting tired. Do you think it is a possibility that i might be anorexic? It just bothers me that people eat everyday and i cant even force a bite down without getting nausious.
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It sucks when people judge you without all the facts. It sucks even more when society deems it ok to make fun of skinny people (not that you said they do, but I hear it all the time).
I knew someone who has a stomach disorder. She couldn’t keep anything down except the simplest foods. Of course everyone said she was anorexic/bulemic, and the fact that she was pretty made everyone hate her more.
Well after about 6 years of suffering, she finally got a surgical procedure to fix it. I don’t know how she is now, but the last time I saw her she seemed positive. Maybe you have whatever she had. If so, there’s hope.
I suppose to be an anorexic, you have to be considerably under weight for the term to take fact. I don’t know how tall you are or your BMI so if you measure those against eachother you will get your answer. You definitely have a eating disorder anyway.
I’ve been there though, anorexic and largely underweight. It wasn’t just because I wasn’t hungry though – it was a mixture of not being hungry, punishment and self control. Through hospital I was able to put a bit of weight back on, loosen up and feel better.. But recently all I’m hearing from people are that I’m looking too thin again and that I’ve lost weight. It’s such a mental fuck because I do eat, I eat everyday but perhaps I don’t eat enough. I’m alone for the large part of my days so I guess I don’t know how regularly people do or should eat. I had a bit of self realisation a couple of days ago when I came across some scales so I decided to weigh myself – what I thought I weigh was completely inaccurate, I was 30lbs lighter – for someone whose 6ft as well, after doing my calculations, I’m pretty underweight which makes me feel like shit because like I said I feel like I eat enough or a lot and I don’t want to force myself to eat.
You might be by the sounds of it but only a Dr can DX you.
I have had anorexia on and off since HS. I know what you mean by the full feeling. Being overweight is prime bullseye target for being ridiculed. Many people stop eating to stop the bullying and shame. People are SO LOVELY to others esp when it is a group of morons with beer balls.
Not eating is a form of controlling your life in parts where is feels out of control. No one can take it from you or tell you how or when to eat.
I am very lean but also muscular. Get this, I am teased and called a dyke (like that is another moral slam) because I like male sports and participate in some of the rough ones like martial arts (the extreme variety). Having a lot of muscle and being thin makes me a target for being slammed by family for being presumed GAY or INSANE.
If you are depressed, maybe you don’t have any appetite at all. I can speak from exp on that one. I had major clinical depression and I was so hungry but the food would break up all weird when I would take a bite and it tasted weird and I couldnt swallow it.
I lost way to much weight and they wanted to shove a tube in my stomach to FATTEN me up. I hate the notion of it as it was torturously threatening.
Maybe you have an ulcer?
Can you go to a dr and speak with them in private about it?
pS I know what you mean about disliking the FULL feeling. I too feel uncomfortable and when I am full sometimes it feels like the food is just shy of reguritating. Reflux in the clinical name for that. Do you feel like that>?
You should go and talk to your doctor, it could be that you anarexic or it might be something else, one of my friends, felt the same way and she had this weird thing inside her, but the doctor prescribed antibiotics and now she’s fine. If there’s a chance that it could be anorexia you should go to the doctors sooner rather than later, otherwise it will just get really bad x
smoke weed it will help you eat and keep the food down