I have been in an almost constant manic episode for weeks.
Usually they dont last this long. Im not sure why this is lasting so long.
I really am always surprised whenever I think I have hit rock bottom and I just keep on sinking and sinking.
It feels like bottomless pit.
With no possible way to get out of it.
I cannot sleep and I need to recharge my THC battery. I have to leave the house to do that. And I really wish I could. My anxiety is preventing me to go downstairs. I cannot leave. I am pathetic as fuck. Pathetic and disgusting. For fucks sake.