I’ve lived a long life filled with struggles.
I don’t want want anyone to suffer like I have.
I’ve suffered with anorexia sense I was 8.
started cutting around age 13.
I don’t respect myself and hurt everyday thinking no one cares about me..
I am constantly told I’m not good enough or it sure feels that way
I have wrote my suicide note but couldn’t go thorough with it.
I want to help others.
there’s more to my story than this but am on a pphone
please if you need help reach out to me..
chance are ill need your help too
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I need your help and it seems as though you need mine….
Friends?
🙂
Yes of course:)
reasoning from your username, the anorexia, and pressure to be “good enough”, I’m guessing you’re a hardcore athlete. I’ve heard gymnasts face extremely tough expectations, especially when it comes to your body.
Very much so. It’s hard. I never feel good enough. It effects me physically and mentally.
It gets tough.
Hit me up on hotmail
are gymnastics your professional career or a sport you’ll be involved with until college? if you aren’t committed to it much longer, it may be easier to heal afterwards. if not, developing coping skills now can help you in the long run and keep from breaking down. artistic outlets seem to help a lot
I’m almost done I have one season left but I want to teach little kids eventually. So it’ll never be out of my life. I want to model so my body image is huge to me but slowly it’s killing me. I hear “You’re so fat” from everyone, sarcastically. But it still hurts. I can’t deal with imperfections.
accepting your flaws and undoing a perfectionistic attitude takes a long time, but it’ll be better for your self-image months and years from now. when you teach other kids gymnastics you’ll have a golden opportunity to help them feel good about themselves and prevent them from experiencing your hardships
I hope I can prevent just one person from feeling the way I have.
I don’t know if I can let my body image go
as someone who’s never been particularly attractive or concerned with looks, I’m not sure I have the most relevant ideas, but looking perfect all the time can make you extremely sensitive to other’s opinions and degrade your self-esteem, especially as age sets in. do you think you can focus on one area of your body to look natural and not always camera ready? or focus on one area you want to look good and give other parts of you a break?
I don’t care about facial beauty like as long as I’m skinny I don’t care…
there’s a wide gap between anorexia and being skinny. it’s better to have a healthy weight than starve yourself, as you lose muscle mass, your immune system becomes defficient, and you can develop diseased like osteoporosis later in life. getting the nutrients you need goes a long way to being healthy and feeling good
I’m trying not to but I do when I’m depressed which is 80% of the time. I’m smaller then 98% of people my age.
for height or weight? I’ve lost my appetite plenty of times because of depression, but starving rarely helps somebody feel better. have you tried eating healthy foods like carrots or apple slices or celery? forcing yourself to eat will at least keep your body running and you can feel a little better knowing you’re not packing on a bunch of calories. do you think you can compromise with yourself?
I can try. After today I’m starting a diet so…I’m sure ill be eating lots of that
a diet to go to a healthy weight, right? give it a shot, you should benefit a lot from good food. adjusting your old mentalities will be the struggle, but it’s in your best interest
Not necessarily. I’m just gonna not eat junk food..
I consider chocolate to be soul food, but cutting out junk food is definitely good for nutrition. just try not to cut out the foods your body needs