i’m so tired for fighting for life trying to think it’ll be okay but it never will. since school as started all fo these things have happend:
- I lost my bestfriend
- I was moved to the sencond line in dacne (when in reality im a first line danceer!)
- I’ve cried almost ever night adn then i only get 2 or 3 hours of sleep and after/during im crying i become sucidial
- I feel like shit
- I feel so ugly
i can’t even be happy for my little brothers birthday party tommorw hes turinging 1 adn guesse what im going to be doing the whole time having a smle on my face acting like everthing is okay but its not adn in reality im close to death. the things that use to make me happy dont anymore and i have finnally amit to my self that i’ve had reocurring depression for almost three years and its gettin greally close to were i can’t feel anything i feel like im going insane i keep talking to myself and its like all i do is think about pretty little liars and books i tend to find myself pretending to be them whats its like tfor them adn i keep trying to stop but its not working! please someone tell me im not going inase i cant i mean i wount i have to life um to my familys name
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I get you. I know how it feels to act like everything is okay, but in reality it just hurts. It hurts to know that noone can see how hurt we are inside. I lost my bestfriend freshman year of high school, and I am now a junior. I tried out for dance two years in a row, and my sister who is a year younger than me, made it her first time. I feel like a piece of crap, and I am suicidal. It sucksss. I just want you to know that I get how you feel. I cry everyday..