About a month ago, I decided to drink with some friends. I ended up drinking more than I thought and the next thing I knew, I was at a park. I didn’t know how I got there or who was with me at the time, I was just out of it. I was scared. Confused. I had no clue what happened. While I was there, I was in and out of knowing my surroundings and what was happening. I remember my best friend right by me helping me out and trying to figure out what to do. I remember trying to call someone but ending up calling someone totally different. And, I remember telling him to stop. He was suppose to be a good friend. One I have exchanged a few kisses with and nothing more, someone who I thought was better than who he turned out to be, someone who would make me feel better when I was stressed or upset. He took advantage of me when I wasn’t able to handle myself. I know he has a side to him that would take the opportunity. But i never knew it’d come out on me. He was suppose to be there for me. Nothing more than to be a caring friend.
But the thing is, is that I’m scared that it didn’t really happened. That my drunk mind thought the worst and is just playing a trick on me. I’m too afraid to ask him myself because I know how good of a liar he is. But how could it not have happened if I felt everything?
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Regardless of whether it happened, I think you should stop being friends with him. He doesn’t sound like a very good friend.
Tip: if you stop being friends, and he doesn’t question why, that is a dead giveaway that it happened.
Yeah, I suppose you’re right. It’s hard though because we’ve been friends for at least 3 years.
He’s been avoiding me ever since but we talked for the first time yesterday. So I’m not really sure. Thank you for the advice though, I appreciate it. (:
Blacking out is one of the worst feelings ever. Waking up the next day and having no idea what went on the night before.. Terrible feeling. I agree with One_Day.. if you don’t trust him enough to ask because you think he will just lie to you, perhaps he isn’t really a “friend.” Was he drunk also? We all do stupid things when we are drunk.. maybe he feels just as awkward about it.
Honestly the only thing that ever helps me after I black out is to just try and forget about it. I know that is way easier said than done but soon enough this terrible feeling of the unknown will disappear.. Just give it a few days!
Also side note.. do you really want to know if you guys hooked up? Sometimes its better to just pretend it didn’t happen.. I know that sounds bad but seeing as you already sound like you don’t want it to be real.. maybe it is better if you don’t know.
It was definitely a terrible feeling, it’s the first time it’s happened too. But he wasn’t drunk or anything, I wasn’t with him the whole time until we were at the park, well for what I know of. I’ve forgotten about it but for some reason the thought came to mind about a week ago and I can’t seem to get it out of my head. I haven’t thought about it as much since I posted this, I guess this was kind of like weight lifted off my shoulders. I’m pretending it didn’t happen but I still wonder a bit. But thank you for the advice, it’s helped. (:
If he’s avoiding you, probably it happened. But… He really sounds like a prik. Why do you need a friend like that around?o