Random Thoughts

I cut again today. It’s been 2 months since I last cut. I don’t know what happened I was feeling happy one minuete then I just got so upset because I remembered something someone said today. one of my own friends is always complaining and then when I complain once she says all I ever do is complain. and I realized what I think about myself. Every time I see myself in the mirror I feel like smashing it. I’m a fat, fucking ugly as hell I hate myself because I’m a stupid son of a ***** who can’t do any damn thing rightI am a loser. I can’t figure things out. I ignore problems because I am afraid of them & then BAM! shit gets worse. i´m so damn fuckin´angry bout myself, cause I´m too dumb to manage my bullshit-life.If being a loser were an Olympic event, I’d be up to my ugly neck in gold medals!I am a worthless pathetic wishy washy looser. I let people walk all over me, I can’t stand up for myself.I’m pissed at myself. I’m obnoxious, devoid of any social skills, over eat. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try,I fail. I just don’t know what to do and worst of all some girl who my ex likes glares at me and hates me for some reason but I have to play nice because she is my friends friend and if I want to stay friends with my ex I have to be nice to her. and he knows she is doing it. he doesn’t want her to bit I made him promise he wouldn’t say anything to her cause I know she would say I was lying.